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J.
"an attempt to make sense of and articulate the thoughts running through my head."
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TAGBOARD.
PEEKTURES.
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flaws.
You know the feeling when you have a hell lot of things on your mind but you cannot seem to articulate your thoughts? Yes that's going on now.
I've been thinking a lot about things recently, and yes I realized that many times when things don't go your way, we console ourselves by coming up with all sort of rubbish shit excuses to console and make ourselves feel better.
Do we let these excuses shape our character whereby we'll always fall back on this excuse when we fail; or do we work on that excuse so that we can come up with another one until everything's flawless?
Something I heard today made me ponder why people don't do the things they ain't supposed to do. Most commonly, they don't do it where it's not deemed right. But then again, that act is in itself wrong. Why is it that we abstain from it only at certain places, but elsewhere we just do as we please? Hypocritical much?
And really; its admirable when people are willing to let society judge them based on what they do by themselves; "what you hear is what you get." Its as good as knowing that you ain't perfect but you're embracing your flaws cause you acknowledge that we're all fearfully and wonderfully created by God.
That aside, NTU's letter came (like finally) and now all I'm banking on is SIM.
Already been accepted into RMIT Business Management; received the package in the mail yst. I have to accept the offer by 8th June and make payment for the first semester.
Looked at the modules and honestly; it was a total turn-off.
Now idk if I should just accept the course while waiting for UB Sociology to reply and withdraw from RMIT thereafter. 95% refund will be given if you withdraw more than 14 days before the course commences; 11th July.
Alternatively, I can just totally ignore the deadline and wait for UB to accept me. If they don't I can just wait for the next intake.
Risky; i know. But do I want to torture myself with something I detest just by the sight of the names?
I really don't know. Every time I think about this, I can't help but think of History and how I gave the subject a second chance in 2009 and ended up falling in love with it.
Question: will it be the same this time around?
What are the odds?
Really; I wish I knew.
See, the story repeats itself yet again. I cannot sleep. Just that it gets worse each week.
What's wong?!
On a separate note; the musical was awesome; all glory goes to Him and Him alone :)
Prata-ed thereafter and 10 of us squeezed into a 7 seater car; powerpacked much.
Less than 3 hours of sleep today; sigh.
But yay at least I've more or less packed my bag for HongKong! (Y)
Flying off in about 33hours, can't wait for nuts!Labels: deep.
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angels sent from heaven.
 (random photo again; what's new?)
Incident #1
Attempted cabbing down to church after work (I left work only 1.5hours after rehearsal started) and when I gave up and started walking into the train station, a cab came.
It was the $5-flag-down-fee cab, but I didn't really care. I didn't wanna risk taking the bus & train, only to reach when it was about to end.
Incident #2
Halfway through the journey, the driver told me, "later you just pay me $10 will do, I made a wrong turn." At that point in time, the meter was alr at $11.30 and we were nowhere near Sin Ming. Reached church, the meter read $14.60; driver insisted I pay only $10. Took out $50 and he was complaining that he didn't have any change. Offered to pay by NETS; nope cannot. Counted his change and guess what; exactly $40. And that was all the change he had; the rest were $50 notes.
Rehearsal was retarded as usual; improv was awesome. Kept my spirits high :)
Incident #3
Wanted to cab home since we ended around 11pm and I was really tired. Walked out with some people, Uncle EngPoh offered to drop me off at the mrt station or smth. Accepted the offer immediately; he said he'd pass by some Circle Line station along the way so he'll drop me off there. Uber convenient, why not. Guess what, the route he was taking was the exact same route to my house. In the end he dropped me off at the bus stop opposite my house.
Honestly, I couldn't have asked for more.
I feel uber blessed to have crossed paths with angels today; I feel more blessed by the fact that I know they were sent by Him. :) Work ended off damn badly cause I was trying to talk sense into a customer and my colleagues said I sounded damn angry. Well yes, its not our fault if you don't know how to fill up the recontract form. Okay the person you liaised with didn't get back to you, but how on earth do you expect us to give you the recontract if you haven't filled in the bloody damn form? He still has the cheek to tell me the forms are still with him after at least 5 freaking months. What the heck is wrong seriously?! I spent uber long trying to talk sense into him.
Heading back tmr morning to clear my stuff before I leave; and honestly, I wish I didn't have to cause I still have to rush down to church at noon urgh. Sigh. But aye, a week off from work's the best gift anyone can ever give me now. And oh did I mention, we can finally claim OT again! Awesome possum :D
That aside, I'm looking forward to tmr night's musical. I'm only a calafare (sp?) plus props, but honestly like what Viking said just now; we can all see God's hand at work throughout the preparation and rehearsals.
Goodnight everyone! :)Labels: its a good day., thank you Lord (:
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mash potato.
Hi world; its end-May. In the blink of an eye.
Last year, we knew time was passing by quickly. This year, we're somehow ignorant to it.
School's starting; all the guys have enlisted for their rite of passage.
We'll all have the chance to broaden our social circle and make new friends; we'll have to move out of our comfort zones to get acclimatized to a brand new environment.
Trust me, as much as I'm excited, I'm very much apprehensive.
Apprehensive that the people I come into contact with may not be the kind of friends I'm looking for;
apprehensive that I might not be able to fit in.
Oh wells, we all need to get out of our comfort zones sooner or later luh :/
I was in the office just now and all of a sudden, I felt as though it was dark and cold outside.
Somehow, I had recollections of such mornings back when I was still in SR.
In my mind, I pictured myself eating a plate of beehoon.
Random; I know.
Sigh, okay I miss SR.
I miss all the last minute mugging before any exam;
I miss having a hell lot of deadlines;
I miss the anxiety whenever I have no clue what the lecturer is going on about;
I miss everything about SR.
 Okay I apologize for the random pictures haha Heading over to HongKong on Monday with Grace and Shufen!
Happy only, heh.
But I haven't even changed my currency, and I think I can prolly do it only on Sunday since there're rehearsals and all for Saturday's musical. Bleah.
Oh sometime last month, UOB sent me a letter saying my PIN hasn't been activated. Weird much, I've been using my card for over a month before they sent me that letter -.-"
Hahaha this reminds me of smth stupid.
At AMK Hub,
Me: Eh, where can I find ATM uh?
Person: Upstairs lor, everything also have!
(I went up, there was only DBS and Citibank.)
Me: Eh your 'everything also have' only DBS and POSB la.
Person: Aiya if you don't have accounts at either of these banks, smth's wrong with you.
Me: Yup I have neither! I only got POSB and UOB!
Person: Isn't DBS and POSB the same?!
Me: Different, you never strive for clarity and precision!
Person: -.-" HAHAHA, I miss this person's retardness a lot, lol.
Super duper ultra mega entertaining, really. :)Labels: its a good day.
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glamour records.
28th May 2011; 8pm :)
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improvisation.
I haven't gotten used to waking up at 8am on Sunday mornings. Likewise, I haven't gotten used to sleeping early on Saturday nights.
Sigh. 4 hours of sleep, yet again.
But I'm glad the rehearsal yst went smoothly, we all had fun doing impromptu improvisation haha.
Take 1..
Mary: (to Joel) Drummer! Why you 'tok tok' so many times! You're only supposed to go "tok tok tok"! You go "tok tok tok tok tok" how I sing you tell me!
Joel: Sorry sorry. Take 2..
Mary: (to Daniel) Eh guitarist! Did I ask you to play the guitar? Who asked you to play the guitar huh?
Daniel: Uh. My father! Hilarious much, hahaha.
Wanted to take a nap before meeting Charmaine cause I was uber shagged, but realized that if I were to sleep after eating my dinner etc I'd only get to spend 30 plus minutes in lala land. Knowing me, I'd be more grouchy afterwards.
As expected, was on the verge of falling asleep any moment by the time we finished doing what we had to do, lol.
Nonetheless, Sunday = happy day! :D :D :D :D :D
Today was a bitch, really.
My mind was uber far away, midway to lalaland i think.
4 weeks till I tender my resignation on 17th June; 3 weeks of work left since I'll be in HongKong next week.
Honestly, I cannot freaking wait to walk out of the doors that Friday evening, knowing that I'm never obligated to walk through those doors ever again.Labels: HAPPY MEALS ARE FOR HAPPY GIRLS. LIKE JESSICA. ;D, its a good day., work-a-mania
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upbeat.
Just ended a 3 hour plus long chat with R; I miss these kinda phone calls where you just talk about random stuff with the other person.
Anyway R, nice catching up with you! (((:
EXPO-ed after work yst with Grace for the Robinsons Sale to visit Constance at work! Walked around the hall and we approached Const's cashier counter with our hands filled with snacks. Total bill came up to $24.15; all on snacks. When we split the bill, we realized that I only contributed $1.95 to that hefty amount hahahaha. Partly cause Const gave me a free snack too! But still.... $22.20 on snacks is a huge sum, Grace Sung. TSKKKKKK.
Oh i ordered new contact lenses today; and I had my eyes checked as well.
Happy max, my degree improved! Amazingly enough.
Now I'm no longer short-sighted! :D
My left eye's 50degress long-sighted (I know it's typically smth associated with old age; but I'm not old okayyyyyyyyy) and I have Astigmatism for both sides.
My Astigmatism degree's getting worse D:
Astigmatism is annoying; you're not short sighted but you cannot see properly. Pfft!
Anw, I hope my lenses arrive before I leave for HongKong, I kinda need them ASAP; half of my lenses has MIA-ed, so I'm wearing half a pair of expired lens D:
And I'm damn excited about the HongKong trip! 8 days from now, ZOMGGGGGGGGGG! :D
Absolute shopping paradise; plus a break from work! Awesome possum!
Okay time-check: 3:21AM
I NEED TO GO TO BED NOW SERVICE IS IN 6 HOURS 9 MINS; I HAVE TO WAKE UP IN 4 HOURS 39 MINS
Bye world, see you in a few hours.Labels: HAPPY MEALS ARE FOR HAPPY GIRLS. LIKE JESSICA. ;D, its a good day.
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last straw.
This sums up what I’ve been feeling lately.
Honestly, it gets damn irritating when the same thing happens over and over again.
Over and over again; I always ask myself why I let it happen.
I always tell myself that it’s okay, it won’t happen again.
But time and time again, I’m proven wrong.
Well y’know what; good luck to you if you’re gonna attempt pulling the same stunt again.Labels: freak; but thats life
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gladness.
Mid-week meet up with Constance yst! (:
Timbre-ed, and the flight of steps took our breaths away, like literally.
Caught up, cam-whored and sang along with the band like some little girls haha.
Had ice-cream at Macs until 11:30pm-ish, and honestly, Constance + Jessica + camera = Madness.
Constance, I promise I’ll visit you at the EXPO over the next 3 days alrighty!
Gah it feels weird to be off on Saturday yet not go out with her :/
That’s been our routine for the past 2 months or so, bleah.
Last day of the work week tmr; which means I’ll be left with 5 freaking weeks. Zomgggggggg.
I really need a break from work; I can’t reiterate that more.
And NTU, please send me an acceptance letter soon, pretty pretty please with a cherry on top.
I was about to say that everyone has been receiving letters from SIM except me, then I received the insurance email for my Business course! :)
But high chance of me rejecting that course though. Sigh I want FASS :(
Nonetheless, that email came as a relief :)))))))Labels: its a good day., university applications.
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regrets.
Y'know sometimes it's just the feeling of disappointment with yourself when you didn't meet up to expectations.
After more than 2 months, I finally felt the impact of it. Like what CY told me, "Don't say sorry to me; say sorry to yourself."
Initially guilty for letting her down; now it's all coming back to me.
Yes it's my future I'm impacting, not her.
And she's not the only one.
Really, the guilt for the other one is a gazillion times worse.
I still remember someone posing this question to me when I wanted to ignore one for the other, "you don't want to disappoint either; but think who's more impt to you."
SIGH.
I keep telling myself that everything happens for a reason; but somehow you just can't help but feel guilty.
Guilty for falling short of expectations and letting people down;
guilty for doing some things that led to this outcome;
guilty for not letting your full potential be made manifest.
Its at times like these that I really want to turn back the clock to change things.
Esp when I'm confident that things will turn out better.
Sigh, I hate feeling like this.
And the worst thing is that you have to suck it all up and carry on with life. Labels: i'll never be able to fully comprehend., rants.
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calamari.
AWESOME POSSUM, DADDY SAYS I CAN GO FOR THE HONGKONG TRIP!
I'M SO HAPPY I CAN JUMP UP AND TOUCH THE SKYYYYY~
HEH :D
BUT IM DAMN WORRIED I'LL OVERSPEND THERE! KNOWING ME... HAHAHAHAHA.
NOW, THE ONLY THING LEFT TO SETTLE IS MY LEAVE.
*crosses fingers and toes*
Met Charmaine in the afternoon and Grace in the evening!
Had Fish & Co for dinner! :D
I love their Grilled Calamari; it's my happy food! :)
Randomly felt like doing a manicure, but the colour I chose didn't turn out nice. Bleah. But it's okay luh.
Tried the Blackforest McFlurry since it was one-for-one; it wasn't really nice :(
HONGKONG HONGKONG HONGKONGGGGGGGGGG! :D
(sorry but I'm just damn excited now heh.) Labels: HAPPY MEALS ARE FOR HAPPY GIRLS. LIKE JESSICA. ;D, its a good day.
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#unhealthyliving.
I want my Jap buffet soon pleaseeeeeeeee!
<3.
twins for the day! planned matching tops, unplanned matching bottoms :)
I'm addicted to Sogurt, and I can dispense nice yogurt! unlike some noob RJC and YJC kid HAHAHA.
And seaweed shaker fries is totally awesome, really.Labels: its a good day.
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ocean deep.
A text from QianMei asking about SIM's payment mode prompted me to check my application status, and like her, 'application was not successful'. 2 down, 1 to go. Sigh.
Honestly, I was too stunned to feel anything. Its like, you weren't certain of your chances but you gave it your all nonetheless . A large part of you hoped it would go through, the other part knew that it'd be hard. Nonetheless you applied and braced myself for the rejection.
Now that it has happened, I really don't know what to feel.
Thanks for all the texts and tweets to cheer me up! <3
Don't ask if I'm okay because.. Even idk :/
But yeah, I'm open to SIM luh.
It feels damn weird to have to go to work tmr, I'm too used to having 2 off days back to back. Sigh.
But yay me meeting Charmaine after work tmr for my bubble tea even though I end at 8pm :D
Gong Cha should seriously open one branch at Nex.
And she knows what will cheer me up! I was contemplating doing smth and she was encouraging me to. "I know it will make you feel better." Heh ♥! But today's not really luh :(
Work status: 2 down, 6 to go.
Potentially 5; cause if my dad gives the green light for me to go to HongKong with Grace and Shufen I'll be quitting one week earlier.
Awesome stuff. :)
Plus it's a PH this Tuesday too! :D
But, my eyes hurt now. Since Saturday actually. It felt better this morning so I wore my contacts but now it's back to square one all over again.
Ah, g'night everyone!
And idk why, it seemed like a 'first-instinct' kinda thing after the girlfriends. Even after getting my job.
Can somebody, anybody at all please enlighten me? Labels: university applications.
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bikini madness.
Awesome day today!
Sentosa-ed with Jermaine and Constance, and for once it didn't rain whatsoever! Tanned under the Sun, and I'm kinda red now.
I initially had some training on at work at 6:30pm, and at 5:30pm, I received a call that instantly teleported me to Cloud Nine. My TL called to ask if it's okay if she didn't have the training tonight; am I already on the way. Told her I wasnt getting ready to leave where i was, so she cancelled the training. You have no idea how ecstatic I was afterwards, hahahaha :D :D
Dinner-ed with Const after shopping a little; cam-whored like free (what's new huh?) before lepak-ing at the Sky Garden.
Sigh, if only today would never end.
And I realized something; majority of my off-days are spent with Const! Apart from all the Sundays; that is. Be it on a Wednesday or Saturday, we meet almost every week :D
Heh now I know why Miss Liu said that the two of us are very free alr. Random much, she told Mr Ong, and he told me.
Me: huh very often meh, only every weekend what!
Mr Ong: (eyes open wide) YAR that's very often!
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wall.
This is annoying.
I hate how easy it is to reopen that floodgate of memories.
And it always happens after I've more or less shut it tight.
Stop telling me things.
I know you just want to share it with me; you have no idea how much i want to know too.
But I really can't.
Honestly, I hate how easy it is for my mood to be affected by something.
And really, who am I trying to kid?
I can take a pretty long time to build the wall.
But all it takes is one second for the wall to come crashing down. Or maybe even a millisecond.
Sigh. Why oh why? Labels: i'll never be able to fully comprehend.
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somewhere far away.
 What I really really need right now.
And faith.
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torn.
It's a game of tug of war.
At times, you feel as though you're going to win the battle.
All of a sudden, your opponent gathers every ounce of energy and pulls hard.
Is it really mere coincidence?
Maybe I should try harder to swim against the current.Labels: i'll never be able to fully comprehend.
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all in all.
 Nike Run was... Overly crowded, literally impossible to run, really. The route was super duper ultra mega narrow. And the Sun was beaming down upon us uber mercilessly.
Didn't see many people we knew; I was looking out for Caprina and Nina but I only saw Nina. More like she saw us, haha. Wanted to take pictures with them, but by the time Const and me retrieved our bags and called them, they had alr left Barrage.
Anw, the live bands were awesome. Marina Barrage is a nice place to be at night! :)
Honestly, I have no idea how I ran 15km for WillRun. I guess it was only possible because we were conditioned during our stay in SR; and we're back to square one now.
Dinner-ed at Thai Express, desert-ed and camwhore-ed at Macs as though the day would never end. Okay, we were lazy to go home too luh. Watched the Election Results with daddy after reaching home, I'm glad the train services were extended tonight hahaha. Anw, I must say it was super saddening to see George Yeo and Lim Hwee Hwa losing their place in Parliament. Foreign Minister and Singapore's first female MP. Not to mention Chiam See Tong, who's been in Parliament for the past 27 years.
Sigh.
This GE; although shocking in some aspects has revealed the bitter-truth. No doubt, PAP has emerged victorious just like before. But there're only 60% of votes in favour of the ruling party. Time for the PAP to do some soul-searching.
Oh, and I guess I have to embrace Tin Pei Ling more and more. Its a need, not a want.
So far I only remember 2 elections; the 2006 one and this year's. In 2006, results were made known rather early, unlike this year's. I think virtually the whole population slept uber late last night, daddy and me turned off the television after all the results were announced; it was already past 3am.
It's nice to see more people taking an interest in politics. Or maybe our generation has just grown up. Either way, the politics of Singapore will take on a different shape a couple if years down the road. GE 2011 is but a mere beginning.
4 hours later, I woke up for Service. Found my dad still in slumber and when I woke him up, he told me to go for Service myself. Pfft. i was too lazy to take the bus, plus i was alr running late. Flagging a cab was never so tiring. Uber few cabs on the road; all the uber few cabs were Hired; those 'available' cabs had occupants alr (wth); the Sun was shining damn brightly.
Attempted taking a nap before Dedication Dinner in the evening, and I overslept. It didn't start on time anyway hahahah. Service at Qian Xi Lou Restaurant sucks to the core, pfft.
And now, time for bed. It's been a long weekend. And an even longer work week awaits me. Sigh.
1 down; 7 to go. Labels: general elections, its a good day.
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politics.
This afternoon, I heard some recording being played continuously. After a while, I realized it was the PAP van, making its rounds around the estate to garner support; the recording was in all 4 languages to cater to the different races in Singapore.
I wanted to use the phrase I always used in my Japanese Occupation essays about the political tours the nationalists had the chance to carry out all thanks to mass politics during the JO, but I somehow can't seem to recall that phrase.
Anw, for once; I'm interested in the GE. And when I say for once, I really mean for once. The Opposition's rising up almost everywhere.
Honestly, sometimes we as humans are all too quick to pull the trigger. Yes, the PAP has their flaws. The Opposition seems to be able to paint a nicer image of Singapore. Notice the word seems.
In actual fact, we have to give and take. Yes, we might not agree with some of the things the PAP does. But, has Singapore prospered under their leadership?
In retrospect, Singapore has done exceedingly well; we've come a long way from the fishing village in the 1960's to the cosmopolitan city we are today. Yes, people have accused the PAP of fabricating History in their favour; eg Dr Lee Siew Choh from the Barisan Sosialis. Did it do Singapore good? Yes it did. The citizens were generally submissive to the PAP, PAP was able to bring Singapore to greater heights in spite of their flaws.
Look at Thailand, when it was under Thaksin. Yes, people accused him of being corrupt. In spite of it all, Thailand was prosperous, no?
Sometimes, we really have to look at the bigger picture. We're not living in post independent Burma and Indonesia, where Presidents like U Nu and Sukarno respectively committed political and social blunders that deemed them unfit for office. Our leaders have managed to prosper Singapore economically and socially.
We should learn to be appreciative, really.
And in case you're wondering, I'm not pro-PAP, neither am I pro-opposition.
I havent really given the elections much thought. I only found out recently that the infamous Tin Pei Ling is contesting in my GRC, against Nicole Seah. Trust me, I got a shock.
And all of these remind me a lot of SEA History. Especially of post independence challenges.
Sigh, I miss History. Labels: general elections
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all I ask.
 Disclaimer: skip this if you're expecting a cheerful post
Really, why are things like that? I'll gladly admit that I'm not close to my parents. I dont want to paint a picture of a happy family when its non-existent. Honestly sometimes I'm envious when I hear about how close people are to their parents. Yes no doubt sometimes they don't see eye to eye with their parents, but somehow there's this closeness there.
And it's not like I don't try. I try to spend some time with my mum.
Even though we don't talk about alot of things, at least we spend some time tgt. Like going home from church tgt when daddy's not around. Y'know I can easily say that since you have to clear up after Service and all; I'll make my way home first. But i don't. And what do I get? I wait for around 2 hours and you happily leave, under the assumption that I've alr gone home. Don't give me the crap that you didn't know I was waiting. Before Service I asked if you were going home afterwards, you said you had to clear up. I made no mention that I'd head home first. I was freaking waiting for you. Imagine how I felt when your last minute meeting ended and I asked ppl where you were. "your mum? oh she left alr."
I was tired. I waited for you instead of going home to take a nap. And this is what I get. 2 freaking hours, mind you.
Initially I was okay, until I reached home and told you that I was waiting for you. Hearing your crap excuse that you didn't know cause I made no mention that i'd be waiting for you really made my blood boil.
Maybe it was my fault for assuming you didn't bring your phone. You hardly bring it out anw. Since you did today, why didn't it occur to you to give me a call to ask where I was?Instead of telling me, "you can ask around and get people to pass word to me." Really, what's this?!
We're not close, and the least I can do is at least to spend some time with you; even if we don't really talk. Is this what I get?
And this isn't the first time. It happened on Good Friday too. I waited for you to finish your stuff and I offered to accompany you when you said you wanted to buy things otw home. You stopped to buy fruits, i told you i was going to get a drink nearby. You didn't ask where, I merely pointed in that direction. Imagine how I felt when I bought my drink, walked to the fruit stall only to realize that you'd left? And you didn't even bring your phone out. That was okay since I knew where you were heading to next, I found you easily.
Today was.... And i always tell you when I'm not going home with you guys after Service.
Somehow, only you can make me mad to the extent that I cry. Tears of fury, rage and utter disappointment.
The other time you and daddy drove off without me under the assumption that I would head home on my own? I let it rest. Perhaps it was my fault cause i texted my dad to say I was heading to United Square since they had a meeting. he drove off afterwards not knowing if i was heading home with them. They didn't call, they didn't pick up their phone. It's the fact that you gave all sorts of stupid shit excuses today that really pissed me off.
It's bad enough that you always put me down. You always focus on my flaws; no matter how I try to please you, there's always smth you pick out to criticize me. You don't know how much it hurts.
Like after the A Level results. You didn't have to go, "Of course local Uni cannot get in, look at the effort you put in, of course you get this kid of results."
You had no right to comment if you didn't know what I went through. Okay you'd say my illness was self inflicted. But you didn't know that i had cramps a week before A's for the first time in my entire life. Cold sweat, pale face, seeing stars; I couldn't study.
You didnt know that I cried for the first time in my entire life after a paper.
You didn't know that for the first time, I broke down while studying on the eve of my papers cause I was too stressed.
You don't know all the trauma that I went through during this period, so the least you could do is just to keep quiet and be supportive like daddy.
I know i don't tell you all these, cause everytime I rant to you about smth, your answer is always the same. "complain for what, go tell them."
You don't ask about school, i don't say anything. When I tell you random stuff, you go, "aiya this type of things not impt."
Any idea how hurting those statements are? I try to strike a conversation and this is all I get.
For once, can you stop focusing on my flaws and picking on them? I admit I'm not perfect. I try, I fail sometimes. Can you at least make the effort to appreciate my strengths? Honestly if you're gonna focus only on my flaws, I'm sorry; your daughter will never be good enough for you.
Can you be like daddy for once?
*sorry, i really needed to rant.Labels: freak; but thats life
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