magical stardust ☺
J.
"an attempt to make sense of and articulate the thoughts running through my head."
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TAGBOARD.
PEEKTURES.
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Will Run 2011.
Will Run 2011 yesterday, and my muscles are aching after running 5km. Muscle aches are so JC-ish, almost forgot how they felt like. Nonetheless, 5km without prior training's quite an achievement for me! :)
Woke up 25 mins before our supposed meeting time and when I arrived, "eh you wake up already not?" Hahaha somehow this always happens; I only get a few hours sleep before a run. Sucks I tell you.
Oh, I think it's karma for taking all the photos of the shoe soles along the KTM tracks, the same thing happened to mine! Now I need new shoes. Bleah.
Missed the college loads, cam-whored around the Fitness Corner after everything! Oh and I managed to take pictures with the girls too! Except Nina :(
Serangoon Gardens Hawker Centre for budget lunch #2, then it was home sweet home. Haha honestly, NianDeng and ChunWei're totally opposite when it comes to driving. Overly reckless and overly cautious respectively. AngMoKio, Kallang/Aljunid, Bedok then Serangoon!
And oh, I know the way to Const's house better than her, ridiculous much?
NianDeng was being uber annoying in the car and I asked him to drive all the way to my block. Partly cause I was superduperultra tired too hahaha. Halfway through all the seventeen thousand turns he went, "wah you not shy uh!' HAHAHAHAHA.
I know how annoying all the turns can get so normally I'd just ask people to drop me off at the first carpark and I'd cross the bridge to my block but yst was an exception :D
Showered, and headed out for the NDP Preview! :D
YunJia had 4 tickets at the last minute so she asked if I wanted them! :D :D
While waiting for Regina at Serangoon's CircleLine platform, I met Charmaine and Criss! :D
NDP was uber nice, unlike some years where its totally boring. Enjoyed the show, and haha I was tired and I didnt know what I was doing. We wanted to apply tatoos, and I opened the bottle of water to wet the tissue paper. The open bottle was in btw my legs and I somehow or other managed to squeeze the bottle, causing water to spill. Not one, not twice, but THRICE. Hahaha the floor was freaking wet afterwards, and Reg took the bottle away, for fear of round four. Heh.
Fireworks we superbly brilliant, can't wait for 9th August's!
Oh and I got burnt during WillRun! Forehead, cheeks and nose. Like weird only, haha.
Pictures later, gonna head to lalaland for 30 mins before flyer distribution!Labels: SR memories.
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all.
1. catch up session with 不可思议on Thursday and HTHT with Cheryl otw home
2. loads of laughter and interrogation with the StarHub workmates today
3. WillRun tmr with the awesome ODACians plus the opportunity to return to SR plus the chance to see my girls
4. NDP with Reg at night
5. prolly spending time tgt with Short Girl on Sunday before she enlists
Yes I know I have a happening life haha.Labels: its a good day.
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fragments.
Emo nemo night, typed a long post but I'll save it for another day cause it doesn't make sense. Found this on Short Girl's blog and I find it damn true. Reflects what I've been thinking about recently. You've got to realize that times change and in that process, people change too.
Their priorities change, lives change and everything else that didn't use to be important is now being deemed as important.
You used to be their priority but not anymore now.
And all you can do is to grapple with all the feelings that you once felt; the feeling of being important, the feeling of being someone's priority, the feeling of getting their undivided attention ...
All of which has been lost and most probably have ceased to exist.
Maybe in some (rare) cases, not all has been lost.
Maybe.
Perhaps it's time I stop grappling with what I used to have.
It's time to move on and let go.
Times are changing for me soon, and so will my priorities.
As much as I hate how people change and how everything else has changed, I've thoroughly enjoyed my ephemeral happiness.
I really doubt I'd get to enjoy what I experienced last year again.
For now, all I'm left with are fragments of memories that are etched in my heart.
Like how the tumblr saying goes, be happy that it happened. Sigh. Yes, it speaks alot about me. Really, is there no way to recapture moments? Labels: i'll never be able to fully comprehend.
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delights.
Random tweet replies really make your day esp if its someone close to you whom you've kinda been out of touch with for some time.
 Miss you J! :)
(Why do so many people's name start with J?!)
Anyway, I think I'm growing fat. I have good food almost every other day. Just today itself, I had Macs for breakfast and Pizza Hut for lunch.
Hahaha in the end we couldn't finish the food and resorted to playing 种机密吗 to clear the food.
We were so scared of being unfortunate round after the 5th or 6th round.
Ate 5 drumlets/wings, omg. Supposed to be 7, but we reached a point whereby we didnt wanna eat anymore chicken, so we reserved them for tea break. Long story; we kept them in my 'office' and guess what. We forgot about it until I was packing up to go home. I opened the cupboard to keep my things and woah the smell was uber strong. And the 2 of them had after work plans, I was the only one heading home.
Ended up bringing the 6 drumlets/wings home, thank goodness my parents wanted them. Else I'd totally die from overconsumption of chicken.
I'm determined to lose weight before school starts! So I have about another month to do so.
Oh speaking of which, I think I'm a genius. I had so much fun when I was unemployed, I kept putting off the urgent things: clear my room, set up my furniture and do up my photo wall. Urgency in ascending order. Now, idk where I'm gonna dig out time from. Rawr.
And, omg its damn annoying. I've had SEVEN job offers after I signed my contract. No joke. They just keep coming. I got another missed call earlier on, I won't be surprised if they want to offer me a job. Sucks I tell you. One of them is an $8/hour job. What's this -.-"
Did they take one month to open my email, read my resume, look for my number, dig out the telephone, set it up, write a script, gather enough strength to punch in my number or what. -.-"
Glad I went for a swim today! :')
Looking forward to tmr's after work plans! :D Labels: its a good day.
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directions.
Every article has its origins.
But what if you cannot comprehend it?
One question I've never actually been able to figure out the answer to. I can't think of a logical reason without making the assumption. And I don't want to. Cause it'll get me started on smth I've struggled to free myself from for a long time.
I’d liken it to the dying of your hair. You dye it brown, and after a while you dye it black again. For a while, you have black hair. After a while, you realize that the brown tips are showing again.
Sometimes, don’t you ever wonder where you stood in someone else’s life? Cause truth be told, I’m curious.
Please let me know if you were able to uds this, thank you.
Labels: i'll never be able to fully comprehend.
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black sheep.
Hi from the office!
It's Day 5 of work! Apart from the slightly further workplace and the lower pay, I honestly prefer this job. In all aspects.
Udders craving, durian craving, and I think there’s also a RotiPrata craving. Bleah.
And, nice clothes should stop being so cheap. Cause I’ll be tempted to get them.
At least I seldom end up at Tampines after work. If fate brings me there again, I’m so getting that top.
Oh btw, I think www.chersamme.com has nice clothes! If not for the fact that I told myself I’m gonna save money, I’d so buy their tops and dresses. Urghhhhhhhhh. Okay at least this shows that I can have self-control. :D
Let’s see how much my pay cheque is before deciding if I should get their clothes!
Anw, its been so long since I experienced Monday Blues, and the fatigue almost every night. Oh and the stressed feeling every morning when you stare at the clothes in your wardrobe and have totally no idea what to wear. Sucks that this is an office environment so I can’t really wear what I did on lazy days back when I was in StarHub.
Check out today’s lunch! :D
To the sponsor, thank you! Although I have totally no idea who you are.
Life is good.
bukesiyi meetup this Thursday, meeting the ex-workmates for dinner on Friday! And its WillRun this Saturday. Meh, I haven’t ran at all since.. 2 months ago? Gosh.
WHY DID I SAY I'D RUN 5KM??Labels: its a good day.
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mountain-high, valley-deep.
 (okay heh I got bored of looking at papers during work)
I see so much paper at work everyday. The amount, waaaaay more than all my A Level notes I tell you. But at least I get my privacy and all, given my overly spacious office. Although it can get kinda boring at times ): Treetop walk today! And we were all in different colours! :) Haven't had such a workout for goodness knows how long. 2 Lt Lim N D was such as ass, he asked if we wanted to go see the reservoir. We agreed, thinking there was a route out afterwards. Guess what, there wasn't. Pfft. Thomson Plaza-ed for lunch later! Ate a budget meal together, for once. Hahaha our expenditure on food's seriously high! Headed out in a t-shirt and jeans shorts after a shower, and I was feeling overly-casual. Idk why it feels weird haha, guess I haven't headed out in that attire for prolly 17 million years. Met KuangJie for impromptu dinner just now! He was hungryboy92 and I decided to be nicegirl92 since I didnt really have dinner. Tried to find RotiPrata in Serangoon Central to no avail and lazyboy92 refused to walk/bus to Chomp Chomp or The Prata House. Tsk. Settled for McCafe eventually. I love staying near good friends; we can randomly head out somewhere as and when we feel like it! Haha KTM last Sunday, dinner today. (Y) Oh random, I was looking at D that day, and I honestly feel that C's superduperultramega blessed to have him. D's a freaking good catch I tell you. Felt this way sometime ago and I was reminded of this fact last week. I really respect D a lot, serious. I miss those almost-weekly dinners C, D and I used to have last year. ): Gonna do my BibleStudy for class tmr and head to bed; meeting Charmaine after church tmr! :D Labels: its a good day.
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roadworks and cats.
Dinner-cum-supper with the ODACians just now! Okay more like my seniors haha. Freaking awesome time, even though it was superduperultramega smoky at Chomp Chomp! Add the chili from KangKong, Stingray and Sotong together, woah. Spicy like no tmr.
Hahaha we were all laughing at ChunWei!
His pick-up line to Gwen: I owe you my wholehearted devotion. He whispered to her but I heard it and I couldn't stop laughing after that hahahahaha. Should have heard the way he said it, epic.
AND HE TALKED TO AN AUNTY, THINKING IT WAS YUANLIN!
Said smth about going to her house, to which the woman replied, "好啊, 来呀!" Omg epic shit hahaha.
Udders-ed; and long story cut short, we took ChunWei's car to Gwen's house to enjoy our pint of Cookies and Cream ice-cream. The DutyManager or whoever she was, urgh she was damn unfriendly. Pfft.
Started the Twitter craze, and YuanLin and WaiKit revived their Twitter accounts. Ha there's gonna be another platform to spam alrdy. As if Whatsapp isn't enough hahaha.
ChunWei kept complaining about how late it was and it dawned upon us that he'd reach home the latest since he was the driver so we left Gwen's house. And we all wanted to visit WaiKit's hall! Off to NUS we went! :D Even Gwen tagged along haha.
NUS has uber strict rules pertaining to hall visits, so we had to be uber quiet. Gwen and me started acting like students haha. The place reminds me of Camp Christine! Someone was complaining about going to WaiKit's dorm for a tour given the time, but he ended up checking in on Facebook -.-"
Oh small world, as WaiKit was sending us off, he met his friend who was shifting to hall! And guess what, he was from StarHub too! We pretended not to know one another though, haha awkward much!
Otw to YuanLin's place, Gwen and me started the Estacy cheer. Hahahaha brought back hell lot of memories. And there were roadworks literally everywhere. Cats too! Their witching hour is prolly near or smth.
Couple of wrong turns here and there after YuanLin got off, Gwen and me started being uber patriotic in the backseat, singing all the National Day songs haha. Think ChunWei got pissed after a while, esp with all the wrong turns and the ungodly hour.
There was an accident near my house, and after WanRu and me got off, we walked towards the accident site instead of going home. Hahah typical Singaporeans.
Okay gotta head to bed now, my hair's kinda dry.
TreeTop walk tmr morning with the ODACians! :D
Honestly, I haven't had so much laughter in a day for so long. Hahaha tonight was Fun! With a capital F for emphasis. Thanks Mr Driver! :) Labels: ODAC is love (:
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blues.
First day of work; pretty okay I guess. Except that I had trouble finding the correct block and the lift lobby. Finally found the lift lobby, went up and guess what, wrong lobby -.-"
Reached office, the cleaner told me I had to go to the 6th floor to exchange for a visitor's pass.
me: uh reporting for work, the cleaner asked me to come up here to get my pass.
security guard: oh you're the cleaner? Wthhhh.
And almost no one knew I was Chinese. Except my boss. Pfft.
Felt like emogirl92 cause there wasn't anyone to talk to, and I stoned for one hour after work while waiting for J Senior to be done.
Did I mention how much I hate office politics?
OH how could I forget; I have a huge office all to myself! :D
It's superduperultramega hugeeeee! Like shiok only heh.
Okay time for bed.Labels: work-a-mania
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fame and fortune.
Day 1 of work tmr.
I've actually forgotten the headache of having to decide what to wear every single day. Sucks I tell you; thank goodness I can wear shorts to school.
Signed my contract today and gosh, Andrew Road's inconvenient. Cabbed there, and I felt lost in the building cause some doors to the stairs slammed loudly and the echoes were freaky. And there wasn't any receptionist at the HR office; I resorted to leaving the office and calling the person who contacted me. Like ulu only. Some parts of the place looks nice though!
Wished I was working at Caldecott Hill though, cause its nearer to my place as compared to Chai Chee. But guess I can't complain cause at least I have a direct bus to my workplace. Not that I don't have any to Caldecott Hill, just that I'd have to walk quite far from the bus stop.
In any case, glad that my bank account won't be depleting anymore. Gotta cut down on spending if I want some extra cash while I'm schooling!
Hope I can make friends at work! If there are even people my age working there!
Honestly, I'm nervous esp since... [Okay it's for me to know and for you to find out]
Hate having to live up to people's expectations. The past 2 years were enough.
Oh and guess what, all 3 agents from Recruit Express called me AFTER I signed my contract. Pfft. Labels: its a good day.
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cloud nine.
Awesome past 4 days! :')
Met Gillian on Friday, town-ed with Charmaine on Saturday WITHOUT SHOPPING (Y), KTM-ed with WanRu after chuch on Sunday, bumped into Regina at Bishan otw home on Sunday :D :D :D, distributed flyers at NorthPoint on Saturday and Sunday, met Grace earlier on, swam and dinner-ed with ShortGirl!
Picture post soon! :) Labels: HAPPY MEALS ARE FOR HAPPY GIRLS. LIKE JESSICA. ;D
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peak.
Guess I held it in for way too long. Looking back, yup it's not an overnight thing. I have no idea why I didn't realize it until now. I'm amazed at my high level of tolerance. At the end of the day there's still a limit to my patience I guess. And you're really pushing it way too far.
Like what V said, I guess we need our own space for a while. Maybe familiarity really breeds contempt. Or maybe it's just me. Idk. In any case, I need some breathing space of my own for the time being.
I hope the fire in me can be extinguished soon.
Shucks I hate how this feels now. I'm sorry :/ Labels: i'll never be able to fully comprehend.
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quality vs quantity.
In all honesty, this weekend felt awesome.
Squeezed in some alone time too!
Yup, i don't need some group outing or a major shopping spree to make my day. Quality over quantity yo.
Right now, all I want is for school to start.Labels: HAPPY MEALS ARE FOR HAPPY GIRLS. LIKE JESSICA. ;D
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wonders.
I guess we all have different perspectives towards life, and we have different opinions about how things in life should be.
I chanced upon something a while back, and I can't help but be awed by His awesome power.
Yes, we face many setbacks in life, things somehow refuse to go our way. It's true that these setbacks are His way of telling us that He has a greater plan in stall for us.
With the advancements etc and all the scientific stuff and what not, it's freaking easy to believe that a God doesn't exist. But y'know what, just take a while to ponder and reflect on your own life, each and everything that has happened to you.
Yes I know some of you might say it's stupid to believe that there's a God when you hear of all the calamities etc worldwide. But y'know what? Let's face it. The world isn't fair. Hardworking people fail, slackers get a tinge of luck at the end and make it big. I know the feeling of being the former, and yes it stinks. Is there anything we can do about it? Yes, and that's to carry on with life. Stopping by the road shoulder to weep and wallow in self-pity ain't gonna alleviate the issue.
Honestly, we're all myopic in our own way. I remember this quote from my Lit text in Sec One: what you lose on the swings, you gain on the roundabouts.
Whenever one door closes, a gazillion others open. At the end of the day, you still receive what you want, just in another packaging. Although sadly, we immerse ourselves in sorrow and self-pity whenever we don't get what we want that we fail to recognize the provisions. I know I'm guilty of that.
Idk. Of late, I'm just overwhelmed by all the blessings bestowed upon me.
There're actually a gazillion things to be thankful for: the shelter we have over our heads, the air we breathe, the security enjoyed in Singapore, the people around us, and even the ability to wake up and tell yourself that you have another day to live.
It's easy to be thankful for the good things. A life of rich fulfillment comes to those who are also thankful for the setbacks. The setbacks make us who we are today. Yup, success and failure is never final.
If we're able to look beyond the imperfections of life, trust me; you'll realize that there are many things to be thankful for.
Yes, everything happens for a reason. I wish life was fair. But I guess the unfairness enables us to be more appreciative of what we have at present.
Dear God,
Thank you for EVERYTHING. And for just being there no matter what; thanks for being someone I know I can count on no matter what I go through.
xoxo, Jessica
Disclaimer: Everything's kinda jumbled up here. Cause.. Its free writing. I didn't do an essay plan whatsoever. Labels: thank you Lord (:
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above all.
Why is it so hard to find a job? >:(
Although I've to admit that I totally love the feeling of being able to lay in bed till the Sun shines on my pillow, forcing me to get up.
But I still need a job, more than ever before. Sigh.
That aside, met Bobo for dinner and desert just now! Thanks for the treat! :)
Caught up, and he freaked me out with all his army stories about killing the animals while he walked me home.
Freakkkkkk. Damn gross I tell you! Worse part is when you have to eat the animal you killed. Like omg wth. And laying out the organs as bait for wild boars. Disgusting. Urghhhh. Thank goodness I won't have to do that.
Tmr will be a better day.
I'm not too sure when it starts but take care, you :') Labels: its a good day.
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satisfication.
Saw this on Facebook some time back, and of late, I realize that this sounds more and more like me.
Woke up to ShortGirl's phone call this afternoon, randomly decided to meet up for a lil while.
 Walked around town while she looked for her stuff, caught up a lil. Bought my beloved Mineshine Milk Tea before we parted ways, that drink is frigging awesome I tell you. :D
Train-ed to Kovan to meet bb for tau huay and there's something nostalgic about going back to that area (:
Caught up loads, updated one another about our lives etc. And zomg I sooooooo wanna ask that person that question. Like omg wth. Hahahaha.
Sneaky girl, I'm supposed to pass her the Uni guides etc today but I found out how heavy it was otw out of the house and didn't wanna lug it all around town so I left it at home.
Told her and she told me to pass it to her bit by bit so she can have an excuse to go out and meet me. Wth lol.
Yup yupp I'll update you about how things are soon! Along with the answer to that question. Study hard bbg! ❤ you!
Just an ordinary day like that has the potential to fix a smile on my face. I was subconsciously smiling to myself otw home, thinking what an awesome day it has been :')Labels: HAPPY MEALS ARE FOR HAPPY GIRLS. LIKE JESSICA. ;D
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rumba-mania.
Reading through my archives, half hoping I can turn back the clock to that period of time.
I'd liken it to eating something bitter. You place it in your mouth, hurriedly swallow it down, drink loads of water to get rid of the aftertaste. Somehow or other, the taste still lingers. After a while, you subconsciously feel like eating it again to remember how it tastes like.
Y'know how it's like to remember random memories and you start smiling to yourself? Yup those.
Oh well. Sometimes wish I could travel back in time to relieve those moments, yet half the time I'm glad I can look back and say, "been there, done that." Labels: i'll never be able to fully comprehend.
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trigger.
Maybe sometimes, certain fragments of your life will remain etched in your memory no matter what.
Yeah pretty much certain I've gotten it out of my system, cant believe it took me THIS long.
There's just one thing I'll never be able to comprehend.
I don't care what people say, all I know is that it's mine to keep.
Yup like others have reaffirmed, the factor was the main obstacle. But kinda glad the obstacle was there though.
Moments are temporial, memories are eternal.
Congrats if you understood this.
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advances.
To-do list:
1. Get a job (semi checked cause I went to RecruitExpress today)
2. Get a tan (double and triple check)
3. Trim my hair
4. Make new spectacles
5. Get toothpaste for sensitive teeth (check)
6. Get stuff from IKEA (check)
Time's passing by waaaay to quickly. School's starting next month, woah. Not that I'm not looking forward to it, but there's this part of me that feels damn apprehensive about everything.
Was at NTUC with Char this afternoon and we realized that there are many kinds of toothpaste for sensitive teeth o.o
And I really need my specs soon cause my current specs has degree for myopia and I think my eyes will get myopia again if I continue wearing it. Plus my longsightedness has worsened. Urgh I hate that part of my genes.
Partially done packing my room, and I guess that's a plus point. OH and I walked through Bugis Street & Bugis Junction today without buying anythingggggg. Plus there was no one to stop me cause I was by my lonesome. :D
The job interview prior to that was kinda not like an interview but nuh-uh, don't like it although the benefits and all seem so tempting.
And. Why do people make advances so damn fast? Nuh-uh not gonna get me. Too bad for you. Labels: its a good day.
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bits and pieces.
You, don't start judging me okay. Just because I dont have any doesn't give you any right. Cause it was all my choice to push it away. I don't care what you think, just quit looking down on me and acting like its a great deal.
Childish.
Plus you didn't know the rest of my story, so leave me alone. In all honesty, I didn't expect to hear this from you. So now you think you're some hot stuff huh?
Y'know what? Whatever. Labels: i'll never be able to fully comprehend.
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nothing.
So much for saying I'll find a job after one week, its been 3 weeks and I'm not even employed. But I'm enjoying life now, albeit the finances bit. My mum was saying that I should have at least secured myself another job before quitting StarHub. True but idk that's me, if I don't want to do something, you can't force me to.
Looked into the mirror a while ago and omggggggggggggg. I really look like a Malay now, no joke.
Helping Reg with her SGC stuff now and woah, I didn't even edit mine last year. More like copy and paste, change the name and gender and that's it. Except that I merged the Student Leadership one with my ODAC bit. You should've seen Reg's SGC. Solid like a rock only.
And computers should be able to un-caps everything. Sucks when you typed a whole long chunk, only to realize it was in caps.
'if'. Screw you, I just didn't see the point in leading them on. Don't act like some high and mighty shit to me.
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ODAC madness.
I won't go under the sun for at least one week. Really.
I'm freaking black now. And it's starting to get itchy too, urgh. I hope the redness turns brown overnight. I dont wanna peel ):
Great day with the ODACians today! Although something else was on my mind half the time.
Marina Barrage-ed to fly kites, Marina Square-ed for Mr Curry and CHIJMES-ed for drinks. NianDeng's recruits saw their Platoon 2IC at a bar, hahaha hilarious. Took 9 group polaroids, it was torturing for our eyes I swear.
And we felt really bad cause the same guy took 8 shots for us, lol. We always do retarded things tgt luh, what's new hahaha.
133-ed home, almost missed the last bus. Thank you WaiKit and YiJun for accompanying me although you guys could have just cabbed back! :)
P.S Miss Liu, if you're reading this, I still wanna go kite flying with youuuuuuuuuu! Labels: ODAC is love (:
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Day 12 - A picture of something you love.
Yup, SRJC. Honesty, I've been proven wrong about this school.
Back in Zhonghua, we had this mentality that it's okay if you weren't doing well. Last few in school, prolly one of the best in other neighbourhood schools. You must uds that Zhonghua's one of the top neighbourhood schools. Ranked as low Band One, high Band Two school; hence that mentality.
I still rmb our teacher telling us, don't think you can get into JC so long as you score below 20. When you go to SRJC and YJC or their equals, you'll get a cultural shock.
I didnt believe her. But in 2009, I realized she was right. I likened SR to a higher level of those neighbourhood schools. Totally unlike Zhonghua. Behaviour of students, etc. Even discipline wise. Initially I missed Zhonghua. Weirdly though, I liked SR after the first few days. The only thing I hated was the subject combinations (my initial utter hatred towards History).
2.5 years down the road, SR has become a place that I really love.
In SR, I learnt, loved, cried, matured, hardened up, etc.
In SR, I learnt the true meaning of friendship, really. Met the most caring teachers I've ever seen in my educational pursuit thus far, 2 of whom even became more like friends to me.
Had my fair share of ups and downs, both in terms of studies and friendships, fair share of rumours (I still have no idea how some of them originated).
At the end of the day, I'm thankful to SR for making me the person I am now. The 2 years were really awesome and I wouldnt trade it for anything else.
Even if you gave me the brains and a place in RJC, I think I'll prolly reject the offer. In life, there are more impt things than studies.
The friendships forged, life lessons learnt etc are smth irreplaceable.
SRJC, I ❤ YOU. Labels: 100 pictures challenge., SR memories.
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lobsters of the world unite.
Unreasonably hot sun as quoted by Desiree, I became a lobster. Okay not really face cause I put sunblock although it freaking melted and it was dripping and all -.-"
I think I can't tan my front. Esp my tummy. My back gets tan automatically even though I laid on my back to tan. Okay we went into the water too but the sighting of a fish totally freaked us out.
Met KuangJie and Bijal for dinner, went to the SkyGarden thereafter. Talked, Monopoly Deal-ed, Truth or truth-ed before it turned into ShootShagMarry. Hilarious max, haha. Bijal and Des had to leave early and Const stayed on account that KuangJie and me accompany her to Paya Lebar station. SSM turned damn wrong after a while and we just HTHT-ed. Const, cheer up kae! <3
At Paya Lebar, KuangJie and me almost missed the last train to Marymount and hahaha while we were rushing from Platform A to B, we almost ran down an upward riding escalator. Okay my bad haha.
One of the most successful tanning sessions since A Levels ended, but y'know what? We're going kite flying this Saturday. Which translates into more Sun. Freak. Good luck to me, I have no idea why I'm so red today.
I think my scalp's burnt alrdy. Rawr. Labels: its a good day.
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bump-into-someone day.
Yup, the twister fries are back! :D
Had that for lunch with Reg today! Met Vanessa on the opposite escalator as I was making my way to Heartland Mall :D
Nice time catching up with Reg, even though we last saw one another yst (:
Wanted to swim after that but I was way too full from my meal, we ended up staying at Macs to chat. Oh I have a hot pink watch nowwwwww! Heh thanks dear! <3
Met Izzy on the train back home! Like random only, lol. Wanted to shower and nap but I ended up using the comp instead of the latter.
Had dinner plans with Nelson, KuangJie and Rahul; met Limei otw to Lorong Chuan station and honestly, I didnt know what the hell I was doing. I boarded the Circle Line train towards Dhoby, alighted at Serangoon and midway while walking over, I started wondering wth i was doing there since City Hall was on the red line -.-"
Otw back to the Circle Line platform, I had a shock when Isaac suddenly waved in my face lol.
So yupp I ended up being the latest, and everyone was late today too ahaha. Timbre-ed; caught up and listened to NS stories.
OH AND THE PERSON YUNJIA AND ME SPOTTED DURING POP WASN'T NELSON! OMG HAHAH JOKE. BUT HE SPOTTED ME DURING THE PARADE! KUANGJIE TOO!
Rahul returned to camp to surprise his Sergent; we walked around Clarke Quay and we saw MissLam! She only saw Mickey though. Stopped at TCC for a drink, heard more NS stories. Oh and we checked in confidently at TCC, haha we told Nelson to settle the problem himself if his phone rang. Which it didnt, thankfully.
Annoyed that we couldn't find a bus stop that we could all take a bus from, we ended up flagging the green. It was either KuangJie and my bus, or Nelson's bus. Tsk. Oh and it felt as though we were on a racecar, the driver went at what, 120km/hour?
Sentosa with Const and Des tmrw! And my furniture from Ikea's coming tmrw toooo! :D Labels: its a good day.
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happy girl.
Fairly awesome day today! :D
SR-ed to get my SGC, and seriously, I'm curious to know why I always see all my subject tutors when I return to SR. 2nd time this has happened, I always see everyone except Miss Ng. Somehow they're always shocked to see ex-students haha. Mr Tsui was uber epic, really. But nothing can beat Miss Liu! Omg managed to see her, but she was rushing for a meeting.
Spent most of the time talking to Reg, visiting the SSC's auntie and waiting for Const to finish her cup noodles :)
Kept seeing Mr Ong for the entire hour that I spent in SR! Hilarious max haha didn't really get to talk to him much until I was paying my endowment fund. Pfft.
Me: Hi, I'm paying my ENDOWMENT FUND now.
Mr Ong: (sheepish grin)
Me: What happened to my Chick Endowment Fund uh?!
Mr Ong: Aiya the chicken too little already, no need endowment fund luh.
[Okay, inside joke lol]
So much for asking him to help me pay my endowment fund, he kept forgetting and eventually he asked Miss Liu to return me my $10. And we were both damn curious as to why he's returning it to me instead of helping me to pay lol.
Told him Miss Liu was uber busy today, to which he responded, "Miss Liu's ALWAYS busy!" Eh WOWS, speak of yourself luh hahahaha.
Okay lah, won't deny that I miss the 2 of them a lot! Dinner's prolly gonna take place after Thanksgiving! :D
Oh and he calls Const "Cons-stan-zeh". Like a random only!
SIM-ed to submit my form, and we bumped into Tania and XinYu THRICE. Got lost trying to get to Ikea, and we realized that our schools are actually just a bus ride away! Yay for that. Best of all, the bus stops right outside Charmaine's faculty! Awesome possum :D
Was wondering why I was uber cranky and nonsensical today; then I realized that it was cause I only slept for 4 hours.
Constance, thanks for tolerating me today, heh. And thanks for accompanying me to get my stuff done today! <3
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Day 11 - A picture of something you hate.
No picture for this, but one thing I hate is how my family doesn't act like a family.
I can pretty much do what I want except stay out overnight and stuff, no one really asks where I'm going and all. You can say I have a lot of freedom, but I say I don't like it. I want to feel like a family. I want us to have family time, I want us to have dinner tgt, or maybe just go out tgt and do things a family does.
I can't freaking rmb when was the last time we went on a holiday tgt. I can't rmb when the 4 of us went for a meal tgt. I can't rmb when they asked me if I wanted to go out, I can't even rmb when I went for a meal with my parents.
Okay i went out for dinner with them on Saturday. Y'know why it doesn't count? Cause it was only because Const was at my house. Otherwise I can bet that I'll just hear the door close and realize that they've gone out.
This didn't really affect me until recently. When I realized that there were other people who showed more concern than my parents. On Sunday when I attended POP, I realized I didn't attend my brother's POP. And I cannot rmb why. It's sad, really. All I wish for is just a family that actually acts like one. I no longer look forward to going home after a long day cause all I get is nagging. I don't get to enjoy homecooked food very often cause my mum seldom cooks 'cause no one's at home'. She doesnt even tell me when she cooks so sometimes I eat out only to return home and realize I could have actually saved money. I'm out of the house so often that she's surprised when I say I'm not going out.
Maybe I just want someone to be concerned and to ask how's my day, someone who understands why I do things the way I do and not expect me to do things the way they do, someone who'll appreciate me for who I am, someone who'll accept my flaws and not pick on them all the time, someone who actually bothers finding out how my studies are coming along, somewho one encourages me when I'm stressed instead of telling me this is what I get for doing last minute work, someone who tells me that it's okay so long as I tried my best, someone who comforts me after a disappointment instead of telling me I deserved what I got cause I didn't put in any effort. I want them to be interested in what I do, I want them to know who I hang out with, I want them to know of my insecurities. Maybe I want someone to bring me out shopping to cheer me up, or even just give me money to shop. Maybe I just want someone to spoil me for once instead of asking me to only do things that're within my own means. Maybe I want them to wish me happy birthday or just to surprise ne with gifts once in a while.
Sadly, all I get is the opposite. When people whine cause their parents call at the eleventh hour to bring them for a family meal, you have no idea how much I wanna tell them to be appreciative cause my phone will never ring. Okay maybe it did back when i was in school but it hasn't happened for almost a year.
Okay actually recently I feel that my dad's nicer to me. He bothers asking me about my Uni stuff and he actually butts in when my mum's being insensitive/annoying. Not often but at least it's a start.
I know you prolly won't read this but W, thanks for talking to my dad during PTM 2010, cause the conversation made me realize that my dad actually understands me more than my mum. In some aspects. I started to see him in a different light actually.
Idk if I should actually be glad my family is complete. Then again, if we don't act like one, what's the point of a family? For someone like me who cam-whores so much, I find it hard to believe that I don't have a picture taken with anyone in my family for as long as I remember. No, those taken as a kid aint counted.
I tried to improve things but I got shot so many times that I actually gave up.
Maybe what L told me's true; they show concern in their own way. But really, can't they be more open about it?Labels: 100 pictures challenge.
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POP.
Attended JunHao's POP yst! And I was the earliest yesterday! More like on time and everyone was late. Bleah it's been ages since I woke up at such an ungodly hour.
Sat at the third row and we were trying desperately to spot JunHao but it was sooooooo hard. I thought I saw KuangJie, but after a while I realized that almost every other bespectacled guy looked like him haha. Spotted Nelson the snail though! JunHao's aunt was so cute omg haha.
Got whacked by a hell lot of bags which were taller than me otw out, got nudged by a gazillion wet arms, saw familiar faces too! Omg epic. YunJia and me thought we saw KangTai. Looked from the side view, yup it's him. Called his name, no response. Called again, louder this time. Still no response. It was only until I took a sneak peak at his nametag did we realize he wasn't KangTai -.-"
JunHao's dad dropped us at Bugis; ate breakfast and waited for the shops at Bugis Street to begin operations for the day. Applied for jobs at Bugis Junction cause the shops were so small. How busy can things get right? Heh. Skipped all the large and reputable shops! I hope someone calls me. I'm superduperultramega broke now.
MOS-ed to rest our feet and we talked for a looong time. :)
Lol JunHao didn't know so he put stuff inside. And suddenly, the whole thing gave way HAHA. I still rmb the epic moment when the bag dropped. Hilarious max omggggg.
Good day all in all, thanks YunJia! <3
Today's a day to laze around in bed and make up for the loss of sleep. 4 hours on Friday night, 3 hours on Saturday night. Woke up midway to switch my phone to silent cause the Whatsapp group notifications were annoying. When I woke up around 1-ish, I was greeted by a gazillion missed calls, messages, Facebook notifications and Whatsapp notifications. Gosh.
SR-ing to collect my SGC tmr! And of all days I choose to go back when Miss Liu's having a busy day. Pfft.Labels: its a good day.
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reality.
All of I sudden, I realized what I was missing out on. I guess I didn't realize it previously because I didn't realize how nice it was.
Honestly, I don't know what triggered the emotional outburst yesterday. All it took was a comment and a reply, and all of a sudden, I realized what I was missing out on.
The link btw both is very fine. I honestly have no idea what led to it. Flashbacks maybe?
Plus what happened yst. First time in at least 7 months, I kinda forgot how these times actually felt like.
I prolly felt okay cause there wasn't any basis for comparison previously. Last night, I came to a stark realization that there were actually other people who filled that void. Honestly, I didn't realize how close they were to actually being surrogates.
They encouraged, motivated, scolded, nagged and comforted. And they knew when I needed to see them when I was really down. It's just like what I envisioned almost everyone fulfilling the role would. I don't know why I didn't realize this earlier on. But last night, I was truly filled with immense gratitude.
Actually, I really wished the actual people would do the same. Aren't they kinda supposed to?
I guess I'm thankful. Thankful to the 2 of them; thankful to Him for finding me surrogates to walk me through that phase of my life when He knew the actual ones wouldn't.
Really, can you deny His awesomeness?
When I grow up, I promise this will not happen to my kids. Cross my heart and swear to die if I lie. I know how it feels like. And I know that it's prolly the last thing anyone wants to experience. Yup you won't really know the magnitude because you never experienced it. But when you look back and think of how things would actually be, you realize that boy, you're missing out on a hell lot of things. Love, warmth, care and concern: 4 important ingredients to get anyone through a tough period. And it wouldn't be complete without the input of the 2 most important people in our lives.
Sigh, as much as I'm grateful for the 2 of them, I can't help but wish that the originals fulfilled their role. I'm guessing my life would be way better than it is now. Even up till now, I can't stop the tears whenever I think about it. If there's smth I really hate in life, its this.
Oh wells.Labels: i'll never be able to fully comprehend., rants., thank you Lord (:
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queen of digression.
Digression over-rule, Const and me ended up leaving the album compilation for another day.
Delay in the West-bound train during peak hour, half of the platform was filled when I reached. Plus trains were arriving at intervals of 6 mins at 6:40pm, can it get more ridiculous?! And they kept saying "train services have resumed and trains may be packed, we apologize for the inconvenience." -.-"
Aston's-ed with the beloved workmates after QianMei's last day, waited for more than an hour. No surprise since it's Friday. And. I miss them loads, really. All our rubbish and lame jokes hahaha.
We were on the way to Plaza Singapura's Starbucks after dinner when we randomly decided to climb the long flight of steps to Timbre. Uber random, lol.
Honestly, I wonder how i survived step training two years ago D:
Oh I had a super bimbotic moment hahaha.
Outside Timbre, we looked up and saw many stars
LingRong: which is star which is satellite uh?
Gabriel: those that're blinking are stars cause there're rocks flying past etc. the solid lights are satallites.
Me: eh but look at that one, it's not blinking but it's moving leh. satellites are stationary what.
Gabriel: uh that's an aeroplane.
Heh. (Y) Labels: its a good day., work-a-mania
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