The thought did cross my mind previously.
Maybe that was the reason why I told Short Girl I wanted to go with her for one Saturday.

Kinda faded, and today it came back. And I've been thinking.
It was just... different. Peace? A feeling not felt for a long time?

Y'know when something no longer gives you the vibes it once did/it is supposed to?
The feeling ceases and you question if you're actually going through the motions.
Then all of a sudden, the emotions are stirred up. But in a different environment.

What if I tell you I want to leave familiar territory and go into a foreign land? Then again, its a thought and in the event I want to move, ask me where I'm headed and I'll tell you I don't know.

Hate the red-tape shit also.
And there's the question of whether or not it is a calling or just the devil at work.

To be honest, nothing has troubled me THIS much for a long time.
Or maybe choosing btw RMIT and UB did.
My future's at stake anw.

disclaimer: i have no idea what is running through your mind as you read this. if it's filled with question marks, leave it. if it's something else, I'd suggest you ask me before speculating. oh i forgot to mention that not anyone who asks will get the answer. 

Goodnight everyone.

I am so superduperultramega (insert your own profanities here) pissed at my iPhone.

This morning, some of my apps couldn't be opened. I clicked them and they crashed. Closed all my apps, guess what. All couldn't be opened. All I had were just the default apps.
Otw home, I was uber bored, so I tried my luck and downloaded a game to play. Surprisingly, it launched. I realized that all of a sudden, my apps were functioning again.

Back home, decided to play safe and restored my phone. All went well. Until I plugged it in again, and they asked me to choose whether I wanted to restore to my phone's backup or create a new account. So I restored it again. This time, realized that my Whatsapp was screwed. My last message received was on Monday. Restored again. Was rushing off to meet the OG, so I didn't restore the music.

Just now, plugged my phone in to sync music. Lo and behold, iTunes asked me to choose whether I wanted to restore to my phone's backup or create a new account. And I was, 'isn't it already freaking restored?'
That meant that some of my data was lost, but sacrifice a bit nvm luh. Restored, I saw my Echofon and Whatsapp apps, the only 2 apps I downloaded after the last sync before I rushed out. It was a moment of ephemeral happiness i tell you. I clicked the apps, guess what, THEY WOULDN'T FREAKING OPEN.

Since 3pm, I've restored my phone 5 times. And I was only home for 4 hours during this period.

Apple, I'm truly deeply and sincerely disappointed.

I can't believe I spent half of my Deepavali holiday in bed. This feels like Saturday to me, cause I don't have classes tmr too. Double weekend in a week, awesome or awesome? :D

Manhattan Fried Seafood Platter was a money-sucker. Thank goodness he bought it for 50% off. Still, it wasn't really worth the $25 in my opinion.

Haato-ed for desert and slightly past 8pm, we said we'd go home soon. More than two and a half hours and a ridiculous Whatsapp conversation later, we were still sitting there by the river. The conversation btw, cannot be taken seriously. Hahaha Miss Liu gave me a shock with her comment on the album. To prevent further miscommunications, I shall not post it here. It's on my Facebook if anyone wants to read the exchange.

Shall prolly continue on my MUS 113 journal after dinner. Heh J & M have been nagging at me to get started. This weekend will be a change, no mass ODACians meet up.

And I feel like eating roti-prata. ):

2D1N Soju Bang with ODACians; 21st October 2011.
Meat galore, Insp's plate of unwanted vegetables, NianDeng's family of prawns.

This is evidence of how annoying the Insp can get lol.

Maybe I still wanted that special place after all. 
Maybe all along, all I wanted was to remain as a memory. 
Maybe at the end of the day, I should prolly be content with the fact that I have a physical memory. 
Afterall, actions speak louder than words.

Random dinner at Old Airport Road with JunQiang and WanRu; YuanLin joined us after her family dinner. I realized that I see someone from the clique almost everyday. Either in school or for dinner.

Too tired to wake up for church this morning, I was still asleep when my parents returned. Never knew how tired I was.
Brand new week, lets hope this week is nice.

Btw, my muscles are aching a little after yesterday. Seriously? I've shopped in heels before, like for an entire afternoon. And I've never had blisters, neither have I had muscle aches. Geez. I conclude that it's just the heels I wore yst.

You touched on a raw nerve just now.
Sigh, if only you knew what the situation is like. But honestly, do you guys already know?
I kinda think it's getting obvious.
Le sigh.

Like what D said, I should prolly confront this matter soon.

I keep saying that I want to but new shoes, yet I never get down to doing so. After today, I think I really need to. Wore my Charles & Keith heels out today cause I had no shoes at all. Gosh, you don't know the pain. The front of my feet hurt so damn freaking bad. Blisters next to my first and last toe and on the front toe itself. Yup, 6 in total.

Chunk Fest-ed with Short Girl, dinner-ed with Mavis and Janelle, Arts House-ed for the closed door concert, Promontory-ed to meet the ODACians. My life is complete after the last.

Seriously, ChunWei is RETARDED. Called YuanLin to ask which part they were at, he picked up the phone and started singing me random songs. She took the phone away and later he used her phone to call me again. Just to sing me random songs. And oh, he used her phone to talk to us via the Bangkok convo. Said the trip was cancelled. Gave me a shock -.-"

Macs-ed just cause I wanted ice-cream, heh. Used WaiKit's laptop to look at ChunWei's old photos, hilarious max HAHA. He and his long hair. Laughed till our stomachs hurt, lol. YuanLin even teared.

Cabbed back with WaiKit and ChunWei, and so many cabs didn't wanna take us cause it was 20mins to 12mn. Oh and there was a $3 surcharge just cause we boarded it from the CBD.

This weekend's passing so quickly. So not anticipating next week. 2 presentations and 2 tests, rawr. At least I have dinner plans on Friday to complete my life.

Just realized I have an ESL Journal due on Monday. Why do I spend every weekend doing ESL?! Speaking of journals.. Dr Samuel mentioned that day, "For those who have yet to start on your journals, you are highly encouraged to do so. I do not want last minute work."
SIGH. Now I have my MUS journals to work on, on top of everything else. Doesn't help that the MUS journals are meant to be WEEKLY journals. Great.

Superduperultramega tiring week, and Math midterms sucked to the ultimate core. Feel like slapping myself now. High probability that I'll fail. Which means more than 12.5% of that module has vanished into thin air. Bleah.

I feel blessed to have awesome friends who meet me for dinner just cause they want me to eat proper meals, and they know how lazy I am to head down upon reaching home to buy food. Met WanRu after her tution that day to have late dinner at the coffeeshop near our house, met YuanLin for dinner today after her classes ended. ChunWei came along too. Nothing new uh, he's still full of rubbish.
Was so hungry that I ate a large bowl of ramen plus some of YuanLin's cause she couldn't finish hers. All these, while laughing at ChunWei cause he waited so long for his and it was some mee-pok thingy. Kept complaining that it was like lor-mee. So much for wanting to eat ramen, haha.

Window shopped after the Inspector left for Yoga. Joke, seriously. Bought KOI before that and seriously, I am fickle-minded. Was deciding btw Hazelnut Milk Tea, Ice-cream Milk Tea and Grass Jelly Milk Tea. Was telling YuanLin that I always end up ordering what I previously struck off the list. Was looking at the menu after deciding to get Hazelnut, asked YuanLin what was the difference btw PassionFruit Ai-yu and PassionFruit Green Tea.

Cashier: hi, your order please?
Me: can I have Peach Green Tea, less ice 75% sugar no pearls please.
YuanLin: (stares at me in shock) that was totally different from what you wanted to drink!!!

Attempt at window shopping was a total success. Considering the fact that I had half-decided to spend on smth today. :D

Oh, East West line sucks. Was otw to Bugis via train, and I was replying Jeremy's tweets about the sucky East-West line and how it always screws up on Friday evenings. Totally forgot that I had to take that train from Paya Lebar to Bugis. Imagine my shock when the realization sank in when I was at Paya Lebar. Train took like 10 plus minutes to move, and they kept playing the same announcement back to back. And their '30 minutes' remained at '30 minutes' even after 10 minutes had passed. Joy, when trains resumed service, only to stop again at Kallang. Reached Bugis, had no 3G. Stood there waiting for the 2 of them, only to realize 3 mins later that they were already at Iluma.

On the other hand, I am so in love with the Circle Line, I can get to school in about 30 minutes! :D Not to mention the fact that the station is about a minute's walk away from my block.

Downloaded the iOS5 yesterday, and now I'm app-less. Started out wanting to sync my contacts, but I did it wrongly so all my contacts were gone. Restored my phone, only to realize the apps were gone (can't believe I forgot) so I just decided to dl iOS5, and gosh, I'm so in love with it. Apart from the fact that I need time to recall what apps I used to have. Prolly gonna cut down on alot, esp the camera apps. I hardly even use them, with the exception of Instagram. Kinda hate cam-whoring with the iPhone cause the quality sucks. So what if you can see yourselves, can't stand the grainy effects. Once in a while, its fine but all the time, you gotta be kidding me. I didn't buy at $399 camera to let it rot at home y'know.The back camera's fine though.
[sorry #bitchmoment]

Supposedly doing Socio group presentation now, but apparently Izza fell asleep...
MUS 113 closed-door concert at 8pm tmr, sigh. I wanna meet the ODACians for ChunkFest & dinner y'know ):
Consolation: meeting Short Girl before that, and we're having dinner tgt with Janelle and Mavis! And I might join the ODACians after the concert :)

[Why do I feel so detached from the world suddenly?
And sorry, I just felt like ranting.]

Came to a realization this afternoon. And I must say He uses different ways to prompt me. Truth be told, the presentation had no impact. Until I saw the tweet, then I realized that yes, it’s been a long time; I’m so far away now. Although yeah sadly the person who tweeted it meant it in another way, but I’m just glad I misunderstood the meaning behind it. Else, I wouldn’t have made that realization. I, thank you :)

School pride: SRJC, winner of Nike SG 10k run for the 4th year running ❤

Didn't train a single bit, slept for less than one hour (insomnia at its peak), brand new shoes, no proper socks. Had blisters, asked for plasters. But they kept coming off cause of the sweat and for the last 2km or so, I forgoed the idea.
Bearable, until i realized the blisters bled and stained my shoes.

Honestly, thanks Wan Ru :)
It's been so long since I ran, and the 10km felt freaking awesome.



Right now, I just have to anticipate tmr's aches.

There are just some things that I have no idea how to handle. Even my dad admitted defeat, cause we're always at loggerheads. But really, some of the stuff she says is really uncalled for. Top of the list? Saying that she can cut off all relationship with me if I don't like some of the things she does. Referred to her as "your (my dad's) wife" and she says I'm rude. Seriously? Give me a break will you. If you're gonna cut off all relations with me, will you still be my mum? And you said it yourself, not me.
Y'know what? I'm tired all of these. They just get worse. I really wonder if things will ever get better. Or maybe I just got tired of wishing they would.

And, thanks for all the love, people. :)

SRJC's History Unit's unique. One day after Mr. Ong's birthday, Mr. Yew turns another year older. Oh check out what I found in my old phone! Taken 366 days ago (since it's already 7th October 2011)


So cute, Miss Liu Whatsapp-ed me this morning to ask if I had anything to say to him, she'll write it in his birthday card. The 2 of them never fail to amuse me.

Anw, seeing as how it's already the 7th of October, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY MR. ONG and HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR. YEW!

I started out this week thinking that it'd be an awesome one since there were things to look forward to during the week. But somehow, my mood hasn't been keeping up with my spirits.

So, ESL MidTerms are over. And I really don't know what to expect. It's been so long since I did a GP essay. Bumped into 3 people from SR in school today. Ona's friend (an acquaintance of mine), ChunWei and WaiKit's friend whom I met at the chalet over the weekend (who happens to be from 20th ODAC) and Daryl. It's a small world that we live in. Met Char, had dinner, almost couldn't go home because I left my keys and earpiece with her, thank goodness my phone still had 4% of battery life left, thank goodness she took a bus and got off at the next stop so she could have more buses to take home.

Texted Mr Ong to wish him happy birthday and the thick-skinned person asked where his Dewberry was. Look at what he received in return.
Truth be told, I miss the good ol' days. Right now, the tube of biscuits is lying next to me. You don't know how tempted I am to open that packet of Dewberry. But it's quarter to four in the morning and implemented this 'no food after midnight rule'. So yeah.

Let's hope tmr will be productive.

Y'know, sometimes I really wonder why life is so complicated. Wouldn't it be better without all these stupid things?

Someone was supposed to be doing her tutorials/reading up for lecture/studying for midterms. Instead, she allowed herself to be distracted and started surfing the Internet. Chanced upon http://the-apple-crumble.blogspot.com and complained that there wasn't any updates.


Hi Charmaine, here's your much anticipated update.
See you on Wednesday! :)

Happy advanced 21st WaiKit!

Had a blast at the chalet, at one point in time we self-highed and started playing Heart Attack in the room. Went up cause of the aircon but after playing, like no difference uh. Super 激动, we were screaming away hahaha.

Smashed cream on the boy's face, we collected cream from everyone's share of the cake hahahahaha. It was so lopesided, he looked like some opera singer. Quoting him, "the next round, you all watch out." Haha, good luck to ChunWei and YuanLin.
Prior to the event, WanRu asked NianDeng to drive so we could all stay till late. In the end, both drivers were staying, cause WaiKit's Secondary Sch friends weren't staying. Called to try my luck, but failed. Gah.
Tried to make the birthday boy drunk, but failed uber badly cause he was already very tired. Alot of epic shit in the room though, esp with the Sarong Guy HAHAHAHA.

Planned to cab back with Gwend and WanRu around 2-ish, NianDeng offered to send us to the main road. Midway, he decided to send us all the way back home! :D
And, scary shit. Near our house, we saw a police car. Nadia ducked down, cause the backseat was overpopulated. Think they were in the midst of clearing up after their roadblock, they asked us to carry on. Thank God, seriously. Cause NianDeng drank a tiny weeny little bit. Phew.

And, I think the drinks made my cough worse. Yes, I know I'm a genius.

ESL essay, why can't you complete yourself? Stop making all my weekends miserable will you. Urgh.

Exhausted after WaiKit's 21st, 99% chance of me skipping Service tmr morning. If I go, I'll prolly end up sleeping my entire Sunday afternoon away, and I won't be able to complete my essay.

Had a great time with the ODACians, let's hope I have an equally awesome time in lalaland for the next few hours.

[Ahh forget it, I'm going to sleep. With partially dry hair. G'night everyone.]