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J.
"an attempt to make sense of and articulate the thoughts running through my head."
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TAGBOARD.
PEEKTURES.
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mary had a little lamb.
I enjoyed church alot today, even though I totally stoned through sermon, heh.
Many of the YAs around me were either stoning or sleeping, ahaha.
But worship was great, it felt so good to be back after 3 weeks plus (:
I can't wait till my room's tidied up so I can start working on my photo wall!
 I want smth like this! :D Provided people like Alton re-activate their FB account, that is. Cause now I don't have access to most LiJiang photos!
That aside, I attempted clearing up the mess in my room. But I got sian after clearing my table and sorting out my notes. Now, there's a huge pile of stuff in my room. Heh.
And I have absolutely no idea how to accommodate all my notes until March next year. Just in case, y'know. But to be honest, I don't really wanna go through the shit all over again. As a school candidate at least. Not like being a private candidate's any better, cause there won't be anyone to push you and all. Less stress, but the opportunity cost is great.
DISCLAIMER: I'm not really considering retaking my A's. I'm not even eager to do so in the first place. These are just my thoughts.Labels: its a good day.
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eternally.
 I somehow saw this coming, but I was clinging on to the possibility that perhaps, things wouldn't change.
Right now, I choose to believe that you were under the assumption that I was busy studying.
Guess I've to wait a couple more days to find out if my hypothesis is correct.
Labels: from everlasting to everlasting.
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liberation.
ITS OVERRRRR! :D
I finally uds why W told me that its better to sleep more than to study more. Second time I listened to the advice, and I'm glad I didn't force myself to wake up earlier ((:
Anw, got a job, and I kinda not wanna start so early cause I still wanna have fun. Then again, it keeps me occupied when the girls are away on SRGCE.
Vanessa, Regina and Michelle, have fun in Cambodia, Yangshuo and Sawarak! Stay safe alright! ((:
it sucks when you wanna have fun but all your close friends aren't free. ):
To be honest, I really surprised myself when I self-consciously doodled what I doodled while on the phone with H the other night. Halfway through, I seriously got a shock when I realized what I'd filled two pages with.
I guess I underestimated the extent of it all. Labels: and i don't know why., its a good day.
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texas chicken.
Last day of studying tonight, and it feels really good. At least its Lit and not some heavy subject like History or Econs.
Studied at United Square's Texas Chicken with Grace and Gran, and it was. Retarded max. Hahaha. At least the both of you made studying for Lit fun :D
And, the Christmas songs played at Texas Chicken are weird. At one point in time, Gran went, 'eh why this song so 激动 one?' HAHAHA. But, really luh!
I can't wait for 11am tmr morning, seriously. But now, I don't really know what I'm gonna do afterwards, plans just got cancelled. Maybe I'll hang out with the 2 of them again.
Oh, we got damn fascinated in Toys R Us. Shucks. Initially it was only Gran. Then Grace and me saw cute stuff too! Like a miniature ATM Machine. And a miniature drums set. Cool max omgggg! :D
Grace and Gran, thanks for the fun today. I'm a happy girl tonight. (:
I feel like copying and pasting everything you said and telling you that most probably, you were talking about yourself, really.
Can you just stop this once and for all?
I'm damn sick of putting up with this shit.
Labels: HAPPY MEALS ARE FOR HAPPY GIRLS. LIKE JESSICA. ;D, its a good day.
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sesame street.
 One more paper till the end, I honestly can't wait.
The post A's plans are seriously a gazillion times more interesting than what I'm studying now.
After 11am on 26th November, I'm gonna look for a job, clear my room, catch up with Happy Bitches, meet up with Marcia before she leaves for Australia, visit the beach, get a nice tan, go kite flying with Miss Liu and some other ODACians, head to Timbre with Vanessa, shop, head to the movies, and the list goes on.
Cleared my locker today with the exception of class stuff. I guess I'll just throw them into the bin after Friday.
Honestly, I don't really care how my Econs papers were. Ignorance is bliss. All I know is that I did try my best. For once, I knew what to write for more than one question, for once I asked for more paper THRICE, for once I didn't finish my paper due to time constraints and not due to a lack of content.
So yeah, I feel that its been a personal achievement on my part, along with His help! :D
Oh, and I feel damn dumb. When I handed up my script, the invigilator told me to pass the unused paper to the front. Thank goodness Sadiq flipped through, because ONE PAGE OF MY ANSWERS WAS THERE. Omg, I'd have died otherwise, seriously. Thanks Sadiq, you're my lifesaver! :D
And, this really proved to me His presence during this period. It happened once on the eve of History&Math, and once again before my Econs Paper 2.
I know I couldn't have done it all without you. Love you loads, daddy God! (:
Its through incidents like these that I'm comforted, knowing that You'll see me through the future, even though it seems bleak at the moment.Labels: school (:, thank you Lord (:
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watershed.
I couldn't fall asleep the other night and I started thinking about random stuff.
Somehow, smth triggered my mind and I remembered all that you said, and how they actually made me pause and rethink my actions most of the time.
Surprisingly enough, I seem to trust you enough to abandon my work plan just to accommodate your advice.
Honestly speaking, idk why.
Even though I know they would jeopardize my schedule and knowing me, I'd end up getting panicky, I listened to you.
I hardly listen this much to someone, especially at these kind of crucial junctures, even if their advice kinda made sense.
Plus, you're not one of those people who're super duper ultra mega close to me. Just close. (I think)
Furthermore, I often find myself believing so much in your advices that I end up repeating your advice to someone else.
And, I'm puzzled, really.
I never actually did this before.
But still, thank you.
I think these few weeks would have been worse, if not for your advice. (:
P.S. I just realized that up till now, I still think that accommodate has only one M. Even after doing a History essay on Accommodation vs Assimilation. (there, it happened again. the spell check thingy had to correct me.) Labels: ♥
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prisoner of time.
Somehow, finding out that it wasn't an isolated incident makes things different; really.
And I really start to wonder if all that has happened previously's gonna remain as a thing of the past, something that I can look back at and smile, as I reminisce the moments and the memories captured.
Yet at the same time, there'll be a tinge of sadness cause I know that no matter what, those memories are part of the past; trapped as a prisoner of time.
Often times, when other tell me what they think the future will be like, I can't help but wonder if they'll ever translate into reality.
I'm not being a pessimist here, its just that there'll no longer be any common ground.
Soon, we'll be too caught up with our own things that we'll forget the special friendship we once had, and how somehow, you meant alot to me.Labels: from everlasting to everlasting.
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dream a little dream.
not all the time though.
I had a dream that some History kids monster-ed me and told me I didn't have to go for the History Supplementary lecture. Halfway through, I kinda realized it was a scam and I started trying to avoid the LT area, to prevent being caught.
After a while, I went to some KFC to study. Weirdly enough, the lecture moved there. Y'know how some KFC's have this segment in the middle and all? Somehow, I was with this big-sized guy and he helped to block me when I went in. Plus Mr Ong was facing the counter and lecturing. But I didn't expect him to head over to the counter to buy food, and walk around the whole place afterwards. He walked around, and saw the two of us. The guy turned out to be Sadiq btw. Got caught, and we were supposed to see him separately afterwards, and I have no idea why Mr Ong told me to come with (insert name).
AND MY DREAM GOT WEIRDER.
We supposedly had some paragraph test. I started bewilderingly at Mr Ong when he said that and I kinda got told off for not knowing. Before that, he gave out a stack of handouts, including lecture slides and the Work Plan. And we were gonna study about Great Britain and Queen Elizabeth in January 2011. Omg, seriously. And there was smth in the slides about 'What Japan and Singapore did in China that's not trash.' (Okay, I suddenly recalled Mr Ong's facebook Quiz and how he's supposed to go live in Beijing haha)
Plus, there were some outsiders attending the lecture too. Weird max.
Oh did I mention that initially, Mr Ong was wearing his Candy-Cane shirt, but somehow he was in his bright pink shirt, and a black tie afterwards o.o
HERE'S THE BEST PART: THE LECTURE WAS IN KFC CAUSE MR YEW CAME OVER TO SR YST AND SOLD THE COLLEGE.
Hahahahahaha.
Honestly, I got damn freaked out, to the extent that I woke up. And realized that it was almost noon.
Texted Gillian and she started laughing at me. Seriously, thank goodness I was at home.
My dream just didn't make sense, period. Esp the part whereby the lecture moved to KFC cause the College got sold. And the syllabus for next year. Boring max, I still think Southeast Asian History's the best. :D
Which reminds me, I'm not gonna be in JC next year already. Right?Labels: nonsensical., we scare because we care.
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with a grateful heart.
Idk if its just me, but I somehow feel more relaxed as compared to the first week of the A's. I guess its cause the papers are more spaced out now. Which is a good thing.
3 papers to go, and honestly, its been a tough ride.
And I know I couldn't have survived it all alone.
I'm grateful to have History and Lit tutors who'd see you on Saturday for consults, and entertain your queries on Sunday, when the paper is on Monday;
I'm grateful for friends who'd cheer you up after knowing that the paper was a disappointment;
I'm grateful for people who'd chase me to sleep early before my paper, knowing that I'd most probably sleep only after finishing my revision;
I'm grateful for friends who'd comfort and offer reassuring hugs whenever you look stressed or feel as if there's no hope;
I'm grateful for friends who offer you tissue and try to make you feel better after you burst into tears all of a sudden;
I'm grateful for friends who'd text to make sure you're alright after knowing you cried on the eve of Math&History;
I'm glad for friends who'd offer a listening ear to your problems;
I'm thankful for friends who'd forward devotional material/send you encouraging verses to remind you to hope and trust in the Lord;
I'm glad to have people who'd nag at you after realizing you went for 6 hours worth of papers with only 2.5 hours of sleep the night before & constantly chase you to sleep that night;
I'm grateful for people who'd scold/chide me after knowing that I have an intention to retake my A's next year;
I'm grateful for friends who make me laugh and forget how bad the paper was afterwards;
I'm glad that I have teachers who remind me not to let the sucky papers that had already passed affect my morale for the remaining papers;
I'm glad to have people around you who trust that you'll cross the obstacle with ease and believe in your eventual triumph;
and last but definitely not the least,
I'M GLAD TO HAVE A GOD WHO'S ALWAYS THERE NO MATTER WHAT;
A GOD WHO PUTS MEANINGFUL SONG LYRICS INTO MY HEAD TO REMIND ME OF HIS PRESENCE IN MY LIFE;
A GOD WHO PUTS AND USES DIFFERENT PEOPLE IN MY LIFE TO CHEER ME UP AND ENCOURAGE ME ALONG THE WAY. ((:
thank you Lord!
In no order of merit, thanks Jermaine, Regina, Vanessa Chee, Vanessa Lim, Michelle, Charmaine, Caprina, YunJia, JunHao, Grace, Gran, JunJie, JunZhe, Peter, Serene, Jocelyn, Haizer, Rahul, Nurul, Reese, Gillian, Mr Edson Ng, Miss Liu & Mr Ong ((:
(I've a feeling I missed people out but I somehow can't rmb who. )
Jermaine; if anyone deserves top place for seeing me through, you'd be one of those vying for the position.
Thanks for accompanying me for History consultation on Saturday night although you had nothing to ask WOWS;
thanks for all the entertainment be it intentional or unintentional;
thanks for calming me down before my papers;
thanks for being so forthcoming with all the help, encouragement and assistance whenever I needed help;
thanks for just being Jermaine. (:
Regina; you're another one I know I can't survive without.
Thanks for waking up super early just to wake me up even though you don't have to go to school;
thanks for all the encouragement;
thanks for letting me rant all my frustrations after a sucky paper;
thanks for always being there for me! ♥
And, I'm super duper ultra mega sorry I almost forgot your birthday in the midst of the A Levels. Plus it was on my worst day ever.
I'll make it up after you come back from Yangshuo! ((:
X; thanks for everything.
Thanks for inquiring about my progress;
thanks for the concern;
thanks for cheering me up;
thanks for believing;
thanks for the 'nagging'.
xoxo, jessica.Labels: ♥, thank you Lord (:
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up and down the hill.
Honestly, it feels damn weird.
Like its being forced and all.
And you know the feeling you get when you know that at the end of the day, you're most likely not to get something but yet you just earnestly hope it'll come true?
Yeah, thats the feeling I have now.
Idk why, it suddenly came upon me.
Pretty ironic huh, especially with the yearning the entire day.Labels: from everlasting to everlasting.
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bell curve.
Its weird how things today remind me of what happened one year ago.
And I'm in shock cause Charmaine told me a while ago that 19 people from NYJC thought that the Chem paper today was in the afternoon and hence didn't turn up. Out of curiousity, I texted Adeline to ask and yeah, it wasn't a mere rumour. Scary how this year's A Levels are turning out huh.
All I can say is that I trust in the bell curve.
Met Miss Ng this morning, and she asked how was Math. Told her I didn't wanna check my answers and she said, "You should be fine if you don't make careless mistakes." Yeah, I know that. Careless mistakes are my only downfall, really.
Honestly, I really don't know what March 2011 will bring for me, all I can do now is to try my best and let God do His work.
Idk if I should be glad by the fact that more often than not, the scenes I picture in my head don't happen in reality. Although many a time I hope they'll translate into reality, this is one time whereby I hope those scenes never ever take place.
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wuthering heights.
Dear Diary, I'm seriously damn freaking scared for Lit Paper One tmr. Way worse than my fear for History when my brain stopped absorbing. Yes, its that bad. I'd be honest and say that I never expected an A for Lit. But now, seeing how my A for History is rather unattainable unless a miracle happens (which I hope happens), I desperately need an A for Lit and Econs to offset the disaster.
But yeah, I told W that I wouldn't think so much and focus, and yup, that's what I'd do.
Dear God,
Please help me through this tmr. I promise I'll do my best, and leave the rest in Your mighty hands.
In Your name, Amen.
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the dawn is breaking.
* DISCLAIMER : IT IS OF UTMOST IMPORTANCE THAT NOTHING YOU READ IN THE FOLLOWING POST SHOULD BE TAKEN SERIOUSLY. YOUR COOPERATION IS VERY MUCH APPRECIATED. You know how things start from '- & - ' relationship, then you'll become good friends (wait you guys are already at this stage). Subsequently you'll become close friends and finally best friends.
When the both of you happen to break up at the same time, you'll be there for one another, hugging and comforting one another, saying its alright. At that moment, you'll start to think, "Hmmm, he's not bad after all.", and he'll think, "Hmmm, she's not bad after all."
After a while, we'll see on Facebook that 'Jessica Lin is in a relationship.' Everyone will ask who, but you'll remain tight-lipped.
One fine day, we'll see you holding hands with a guy along Orchard Road. And we'll all get a shock when we see that its XXX.
Then we'll all sit back and wait for the wedding invites to come.
-Jermaine.
Vivid imagination huh? Hahahaha. Jermaine Peh, you know that I know that its all freaking impossible. Instead of reading Wuthering Heights, she started thinking about all these instead -.-" She even considered the 5 Cs stuff, and what will happen when I enter Uni and if I take the subject I want. "He can teach you and he'll go, 'No dear, its not this.' Then he'll help you to highlight your notes and you guys can go into an interesting discussion." And it got worse when I said he talked to my dad before. "See, one down. Now all you need to do is to introduce him to the other side." OMG, seriously. Hahahahaha it kept me damn entertained for the evening; Jermaine's seriously amusing I swear. Plus all her cute-ness and innocence, what more could I ask for. P.S. Jermaine, I know you'll read this, and perhaps it'll go down better if you read it. 'The age gap is a freaking insuperable barrier' as told to you by Oscar Wilde. (: And, the most important thing is that I DON'T EVEN LIKE HIM TO BEGIN WITH. Labels: nonsensical.
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smile; an everlasting smile.
Often times, I can't help but wonder if I'm just one of the many.
But honestly, whether or not I am, I think I still wanna thank you for all the care and concern, be it perceived or real.
And, thanks for always putting a smile on my face.Labels: from everlasting to everlasting.
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chasing cars.
I had a freaking hard time dragging Miss Jermaine Peh into school this morning, cause she started whining about not wanting to go for History and Math, and I got damn pissed cause she insisted on hugging the poles along the way. Plus I was panicking about Math and History alr, she was just making things worse. Later on she insisted on sitting down at the cafe instead of not going to class for Math, I had to literally drag her out of the seat and subsequently to the venue.
And. I asked her if I should take my jacket and she scolded me cause it was in the classroom. In the end, I was directly in between two fans, and it was seriously freezing. Plus it started drizzling too. Awesome max huh. To the extent that the first thing I did after coming out was to get my jacket from the locker.
Hahaha. But Jermaine, you know I love you all the same.
Btw, sorry if I was harsh today kk. Even in between Math and History when I was making you study History. It was just the nerves :\
 Thanks for everything recently babe, love you max!
Somehow, I guess the mood after the double papers was superb. I got damn high while doing the History survey, and I was blur to the extent that I ended up submitting my entry proof to Mr Ong as well. Hahaha we were walking up to the cafe when I realized that it felt damn weird to be carrying only my pencil box. Then I realized what was missing. He totally got a shock when I went back to LT1 and told him what happened and he threw the whole stack at me and told me to look for it myself. The remaining people in the LT totally laughed at me. Hahahahah.
Anyway, I think the Chief Invigilator during Math was damn cute, seriously. At the end he read an announcement that we're reminded to keep our bags in the locker before our papers, and they confiscated some bags today, blah. The funny part?
"Some bags were CONFISTICATED this morning, please claim them from the GO."
I swear I burst out laughing when he said that.
And the Chief Presiding Examiner's just as cute, he talks damn slowly. When he first opened his mouth before our History Paper 2, I had to control myself from laughing. And yes, I was panicking before the paper began. If he could make me laugh, imagine how funny it was. Hahaha.
Short Nation had an outing just now, and I somehow feel that it made my day. After having dinner and talking a hell load of rubbish, my spirits perked up alot, and I'm not that tired anymore. But yeah, I'll sleep well tonight. And yes Gillian and Jermaine, I'll eat my medicine tonight too. After idk how freaking long. Its drowsy, I need the rest anyway.
Oh, on the way out of school, I talked to the 23rd EXCO at the concourse, Cavan's as irritatingly retarded as ever. Hahaha. And annoying too. But I really miss ODAC. A hell lot. Well honestly, I don't know. I somehow sense it, but then I'm not too sure.
I don't wanna end up thinking too much y'know.
But honestly, thanks for everything.
Even just now. (:
Okay, I'll just look forward and anticipate Econs and Lit. Seeing as how its the only viable option left.
mocha.infusion says:
no. cannot retake.
private candidate also cannot. bleah.Labels: its a good day.
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the tigers are coming.
1 H2 and 2 H1s down, 2 H2s to go.
Honest opinion? SCREWED. With the exception of Math. But that's cause I refused to write down my answers and I refused to discuss them. Somehow my math is either damn awesome or damn shitty. And I kinda not like it when people keep telling me not to worry for Math, cause I'll get my A. Its just that people have high expectations of you, and it really sucks when you end up disappointing them y'know. Miss Ng, I hope I'll do you proud come March 2011. I'm sorry for constantly reassuring you at one moment, then giving you a heart attack the next. I hope this turns out well. (:
History was the most epic, seriously. My brain died on Sunday night. So i was just reading, not much retained. It like yeah, I know whats going on but I can't rmb the exact details kinda thing. And the feeling really sucked cause History's one of the subjects I really really study for, and I was expecting an A. Awesome huh?
Not like today's paper was awesome too. I happened to not study only Impact of CMC/KW. That had to come out. And we didn't get to choose questions this year, so I was screwed. But at least this wasn't as bad as Paper Two, cause I had 6 TSs for my GE essay :D
GP was a nightmare too cause towards the end of my essay, I realized I left out the word 'more' in my answer. I hope I don't end up failing GP, cause that's the worst thing that could ever happen.
Somehow, repeating my A's seem like a nice thing. I guess I just hate how the subject I studied the hardest for disappointed me terribly when the end was within reach. Its the kind where you know you could have done better, but you didn't.
I guess the A's are really affecting me damn badly.
Yesterday was the first time I burst into tears over my studies. I was nowhere near finishing my History revision at 8pm. Barely quarter through, to be honest. And my Math was untouched. And all of a sudden, I burst into tears when YunJia and Serene came to say bye. I never thought I would do that, but I guess it was just the stress.
Plus a while before that, Nurul, Jonathan, Ezra, Ben and me were cracking our heads over some part of the Cold War EA that didn't make sense. Saw Mrs Teng, she didn't know, then we saw Miss Ong. Discussed for a freaking long time before we began to suspect that it was but a mere linking sentence. At that point in time, I swear I seriously wanted to kill Mr Ong. Seriously. Esp since he's the advocate of signposting. I really panicked and wondered what'd happen during my paper if I didn't know such basic things. In the end.. -.-" ttm, really.
On my way home, I realized that I did look like I cried, I looked like a mess. And that was alr 1 hour after I calmed down. Imagine the immediate sight omg. :\
Thanks for the all the texts of concern and encouragement (:
But yeah, now's not the time to fret over what had already happened. Like what Miss Liu and Mr Ong told me, I still have 40 points waiting for me.
Its been a tough ride, really. I just pray that I didn't compromise that much of my A for Math just for my History. 2.5hours of sleep last night was just. Not enough, esp since I'm still sick. Yes, its been ages. I know. And its really affecting my performance.
Yeah, I guess its pretty obvious to those around me that the past two/three weeks of my life have seriously been a soap opera. So many bad things have been happening, and miraculous signs have popped out when I least expected them to.
I guess I'm leaving everything to God, really. I guess He just has His plans for me. (:Labels: school (:
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fear and trepidation.
Arrange all the essay outlines and tick off the soccer plan. Tell yourself you have them all and everything will be alright.
And it really is going to be alright.
-email sent to the History kiddos.
I really really wanna hope that everything's gonna be alright.
Cause all the fear's coming back to me. I think it was just the email. Shucks.Labels: we scare because we care.
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hope in the distance.
 Honestly, I really regret putting off Pre-War Nationalism until the 11th hour. Cause I have no choice but to merely memorize the outlines, which negates the idea of understanding. This totally sucks, seeing as how I'm someone who'd rather take time to uds the points rather than regurgitate the outlines. Seeing as how its so near to the paper, I'm getting constant reminders from people like Jermaine and Mr Ong to study from the outlines only.
But then again, its my fault I guess.
Yst's History consult was seriously a morale booster. It made me realize that at the end of the day, I actually know my content bits and pieces. Just that I need to consolidate them to form an essay. (Y)
My only worry now is that I misread the question. That happened during the Prelims, bleah.
Or that I can't absorb all the examples in time.
I'm hoping and praying that the Promos incident won't repeat itself, whereby I saw the question and my mind went totally blank.
Alright, back to getting to know my new friend more! (:
JESSICA ♥ AND THEY LIVED HAPPILY EVER AFTER. says:
what was i doing during pre-war huh?
but i realized that when i read the outlines, i actually find the stuff familiar.
so pre-war's not exactly my new friend anymore. we fell out i think
mocha.infusion says:
no u walked away
JESSICA ♥ AND THEY LIVED HAPPILY EVER AFTER. says:
cause we fell out! i won't wu yuan wu gu walk away right.
mocha.infusion says:
hahahahahahaha maybe u left without a word
pre-war was hurt, but didnt say a thing retarded max, hahahaha.Labels: msn conversations., school (:, we scare because we care.
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hiwa.
Today, I met a new friend. His name is Pre-War Nationalism, the brother of Japanese Occupation and Decolonization. The threesome are affectionately known as How Independence Was Achieved.
Right now, my impression of Pre-War Nationalism's starting to change a little. I hope I can like him as much as I like his brothers. Pre-War Nationalism's really complicated.
Honestly, I wanted to pretend that Pre-War Nationalism never existed. But then I received a dressing down when I expressed my intentions to do so. Afterall, he's intertwined with his brothers.
Oh well.
Pre-War Nationalism, please be a good boy alright? I really need you.
Stop hiding to yourself. Tell me more about yourself, I promise I won't judge. In spite of all your flaws, I'm willing to accept you for who you are. I know you're complicated, but I'm willing to set aside time to bridge the existing gap between us so that we can reach a level-playing field.
I'll do what it takes to understand you.
I'm not lying. Trust me this once, please?
I'll be eternally grateful.
xoxo, jessica.Labels: we scare because we care.
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syonan-to.
It's seriously not funny when you find out 2 days before your History paper that your organization of points for a particular topic is wrong. Plus, you find out that horrible truth unknowingly.
In other words, that mistake has never been pointed out. And you've been studying from that organization all along.
Just when you thought you could move on to other more demanding topics, this happens.
And now your tutor tells you that perhaps you don't really uds the points.
Can my life get any better than this?Labels: freak; but thats life, we scare because we care.
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deepavali.
Just now, during JJJ consult with Mr WOWS, we somehow or other started talking about Deepavali tmr.
Jonathan: I heard there's gonna be a countdown on Vassatham Central tonight!
Mr Ong: Huh serious? In Tamil uh?
Jessica: No, mandarin. They're gonna go 五, 四, 三, 二, 一, HAPPY DEEPAVALI! Joke, seriously. Stupid questions warrant stupid answers hahaha.
I still find it hard to believe that it came from Mr Ong though.Labels: its a good day., nonsensical., school (:
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first, second, and the list goes on.
Yes, there's a first time to everything. And it sucks that I seem to be a magnet for calamities ever since we embarked on the final lap leading up to the A Levels.
No joke, seriously.
Coupled with the fact that I got pissed over two incidents just now, today's seriously a bad day. No wait, make that horrible. I was telling Peter what happened and I had to restrain myself from cursing and swearing.
Plus the almost first time cramps. That were bad to the extent that I broke out in cold sweat, saw stars and turned pale.
Peter, thanks for the listening ear ((:
Jermaine, Huiting, Sky, Nurul, Reese and Lynn, thanks for your concern and seeing me out of school and leaving only when I was safely in a cab. ((:
That aside, I'm hoping for the best. It sucks that I'm no longer confident for History. The subject that I'm banking my A on. Same goes for Math. Bleah.
I just hope Saturday and Sunday's session won't be a repeat of what happened today.
Its no use harping over the fact that last week was entirely wasted due to my immensely high fever and subsequent inability to study; I think the best thing now is just to work with whatever remaining time I have left to give things my best shot. And take good care of my health. In the event that a relapse ever happens, I'm freaking bloody damn screwed.
But somehow, I feel comforted whenever I'm reminded of the fact that everything happens for a reason. ((:Labels: school (:
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in and out.
Sometimes, I just don't get how people can blurt out stuff without giving second thoughts to their surroundings. And its not as if what they said made sense.
What really got on my nerves was that you didn't spare a thought for the other party. Insensitive to the max, totally. Plus there were loopholes in what was said. Its as though it was said just for the sake of being said. Reflects on the amount of common sense, seriously. Just so you know, you went way overboard.
Just when I thought this was all over, finally. Bleah.
But above all, I'm just thankful that J was with me through it all. I just can't imagine going through it alone.
Thanks for helping to suppress the anger burning within, thanks for being a 'rant-bin'.
Love you babe! <3 Labels: pieces of the puzzle
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