FAITH, HOPE & LOVE ♥

magical stardust ☺

"an attempt to make sense of and articulate the thoughts running through my head."

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TAGBOARD.

PEEKTURES.

FLASHBACKS

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One-sided Reality.

What if you're a different person?
What if the person I know isn't the person you actually are?
What if you're just putting up a facade?

I don't wanna feel as though I'm trying too hard. But apparently maybe I am more interested in this than you. Will our plans actually materialize? Or will they always be left hanging in mid-air until I take the effort to finalize them? And of course, make me feel like I'm annoying you in the process? As much as I really want this, it's tiring constantly being the one to hold things tgt.

I really don't know. Maybe we should stop all these and start being acquaintances. Then that will solve a lot of my problems and I'll stop thinking so much and wondering how we can be good friends. Truth be told, I really hate feeling that this whole thing is so one-sided.

Labels: and i don't know why., it takes two hands to clap.

Desire versus fear.

As much as I really want us to be very good friends, I gotta accept the fact that we're from 2 vastly different worlds.

I'm torn between the desire to be a good friend and the fear of being intrusive.

But I'm actually really curious to know why I'm feeling this way.

Labels: and i don't know why.

Windwhirl in my head.

State of confusion, messed up inner-thoughts that I have problem articulating.

It really felt different. Even until now, I have flashbacks of random moments. And I'll always remember the tinge of disappointment at that point in time.

Was about to console myself by saying that you're the first such person I know of. Then again, I realized it's an excuse.

Labels: and i don't know why.

liberation.

ITS OVERRRRR! :D

I finally uds why W told me that its better to sleep more than to study more. Second time I listened to the advice, and I'm glad I didn't force myself to wake up earlier ((:

Anw, got a job, and I kinda not wanna start so early cause I still wanna have fun. Then again, it keeps me occupied when the girls are away on SRGCE.
Vanessa, Regina and Michelle, have fun in Cambodia, Yangshuo and Sawarak! Stay safe alright! ((:
it sucks when you wanna have fun but all your close friends aren't free. ):

To be honest, I really surprised myself when I self-consciously doodled what I doodled while on the phone with H the other night. Halfway through, I seriously got a shock when I realized what I'd filled two pages with.

I guess I underestimated the extent of it all.

Labels: and i don't know why., its a good day.