maybe i was better off not knowing.

i admit, it was an oversight on my part. i should probably have seen this coming; and now i cannot help but feel vulnerable at times whenever i'm around you. but really, what's done is done. i cannot erase it off my mind immediately, but maybe time will work its magic.

you were and still are special to me, and i don't want anything to affect the way things are.

hello from Los Angeles! :D

time check; 4:31am. supposedly have plans to leave for Santa Monica tmr at 9am but half of the group is still awake. so..... HAHA

i'm not ready to go back home. 12 more days till i leave America, 14 days till i reach Singapore (cause of th time difference). too fast, really. when i return, it'll be back to all the nonsense back home. really enjoying the peace now without all of that bullshit. still remember what happened on the eve of the day i flew off. and even what happened before i left home. sigh. J just reminded me of my curfew back home. screw my curfew, seriously. exceptionally infuriated cause it was imposed without rhyme or reason.

y'know sometimes i watch tv shows and it all just seems too unreal. i mean, look at how easy it is. sometimes i act like it was prolly half by choice, but sometimes i really wonder if its just a front. maybe i'm too choosy for my own good. it does kinda make you feel good about yourself. oh well, maybe the time will come.

this is what happens when a cute girl and Asian American guy goes into Jan's room to fix her wonky Internet.

last weekend here in Berkeley! time really flies huh, seems like it was just yesterday that we got here. 2 final papers due on Wednesday, each with a length of 4-5 pages. and i don't feel like doing any of it, sigh. after Wednesday, i can legitly play and not care about school anymore! until Fall'13 comes around, that it. but yay! and i'm kinda starting to accept the fact that i may never see my eye candy ever again. sigh such is life, such is life.
okay depressing stuff aside, i haven't actually started missing Singapore. yes, i miss my friends and all but that's it. there is no urge to fly home and soak in the S'porean atmosphere whatsoever. if only i can stay on in America sighhhh. then again, i really really wanna make it back in time for my brother's convocation. oh and he mentioned wanting to go to NYC, so yay maybe we can travel together in future. when i finally start working and earning moneyyyyyyy. it's been so long since we went overseas tgt; really hope we get to travel together soon.
anw D if you're reading this from Korea, cheer uppppp! things will get better there once school starts on Monday alrighty. sending love from US to Korea! :)