i don't know if i should cry or laugh at how ridiculously unfated we are. i usually take the Telegraph route home after class, but today i took another route home. met the clique at the lift lobby and they were all, "did you bump into XXX?!?" apparently, if i had taken the Telegraph route, we'd have crossed paths. omgggggggggg. nevermind, that's the first thing.

went down to the guys' room just now to get smth, and while waiting for the lift, i bumped into XXX's friend. firstly, they don't live on that level. next, i hardly ever see that friend alone. as in the only time i see him is when i see them tgt. yes it was so coincidental that we met, so why is XXX not thereeeeeeeeeeeee?

sadkid92 now omg.

okay i realized that i'd prolly look back at this post sometime later and laugh at how crazy i am, but heck.

i want to do something really crazy before i leave Berkeley. okay i know i've done several things i've never done back home, but....

this IS pretty crazy. I really don't know why i have this sudden urge to do it. but.... i somehow just don't have the guts to do it hahahaha what is wrong with me. i'd say i'm making progress bit by bit, but time isn't on my side. left with slightly more than one week (omg where did time fly to), and fate is being a total and absolute bitch mehhhh

crossing my fingers and toes for something memorable to remember this Summer by, apart from all my crazy adventures and stints :))

Google Hangout/Skype/Oovoo-ed jesgabroy last night! :D  (see i mentioned y'all!)

and just a while ago, my beloved phone went for a swim... in the toilet bowl. *face palm* it was in the back pocket of my shorts, and i heard smth dropping into the toilet bowl. turned around and i had the shock of my life when i saw my phone floating. thank goodness i can still use it, in spite of some wonky buttons here and there. dryed it with the hair dryer just now, and i hope the rest of the water dries soon :/ it is honestly quite scary to see my phone lit up for no rhyme or reason, and see the screen switch to the power off option thereafter.



depressing things aside, road trip to Lake Tahoe in a few hours! :D but sadly, my books and laptop's making the trip too sigh. essay, why can't you write yourself pfft.

1. this is a clear example of how looks can be deceiving. i do not dismiss the fact that it might be an off-and-on thing, but that doesn't make it more permissible.
    
2. i'm not finding excuses, but i can see how your actions can be justified. after all, i'd have done the same if i were you. so maybe i'll give you the benefit of doubt. i can't help it if people cannot put themselves in your shoes, but i think you can't be bothered with what they think too. 

wait, why do i even care.

trying damn bloody hard to write my damn History paper, but i have no freaking idea what to write. really wanna get it over and done with by this evening so i can head out and party with the rest at night. alrdy gonna give up a free pass to a movie premier, urgh.

4-5 pages; and although i'm already at the 2 page mark, i cannot help but worry because i don't know what i'm writing. okay i know, but i kinda think that this is not what the paper is asking for.

okay wait, do i even care? no. so i'm just gonna go ahead and submit this paper. this will prolly be one of my worst papers ever, but i've reached a point where i really cannot be bothered.

remembering the days long gone;
like a ship that has set sail;
maybe missing them a little;
wishing things turned out differently.

the memories bring a smile to my face;
but the smile is instantaneously removed;
because of the state of things.
they make me sick to the stomach sometimes;
oh well that is life.

i might have been happier;
but i choose to be happy with things now;
no use harping on the past;
so let's focus on the task at hand;
and make the present a memorable one.

always easier said than done. prepared myself for this, but somehow i'm still struggling to come to terms with it. it's not easy constantly sacrificing your own wants/desires for the sake of someone who is probably oblivious to it all. trying my best to tolerate it all, but there is a limit and i'm not sure how much longer i can keep up with this facade. i mean, for most of you who really know me, i often don't go along with the crowd unless one whole big group has the same opinions and i'm the odd one out; i don't go, "anything" if i don't really want something.

i voice out my opinions, but sometimes i choose to be okay with anything for the sake of harmony. this is one of the occasions.

i'm starting to wonder if taking Postwar Japan was a mistake. but in any case, i have no other choice but to suck it up and continue, since add/drop has ended.

temperatures rose over the weekend, then it dropped again on Sunday night. and i think that's the main reason why i fell even more sick. there is even blood in my mucus, zomg. time to start spamming the Panadol pills i thought i could escape from.

and my body is finally protesting to the apparent lack of sleep ever since i got here. and maybe its also a reaction to all the partying (whoops). roomie agrees that i've been more wild here, sigh.

hello from Berkeley! :D

it's been a week since i got here, and life here is AMAZING. enjoying every bit of the peace and serenity here, and Berkeley is so pretty! was kinda cold when we arrived, but the temperature's rising now so yay! altho it still gets cold at night and i resort to running back into the building after we cross the road cause i finally ditched my jeans for shorts/skirts/dresses haha.

and San Francisco is so superduperultramega pretty zomg i'm in love. all the tall buildings... idk, its just the vibe the city gives me. always so happy whenever i'm there :))