i think twins are super cuteeeeeee. W and I were having a conversation in the day about having twins (don't ask me how we got to it) and we coincidentally saw twins that night at Jol's party! super adorable zomggggggggg. I wanna have twins! okay that's if i ever get married heh.

this is all bad timing. really bummed about leaving on Day 2, cause its where most of the fun takes place. and not to mention the fact that I'll be leaving my partner all alone. but aye, he's a big boy, can take care of everyone! :D

and of course, this is more waaaay important than orientation.
no idea when i should ask if i can still have my party. everyone seems so edgy, i don't know when to bring up the topic sigh.

looking back at the past year, i realize that i have a lot to be thankful for.

enjoyed Spring'12 a lot more than Fall'11, got to know a lot more Sociology majors, had a lot of fun during classes. especially PSY 101. didn't enjoy the modules i took but the company made up for it all. 'twas nice having the exact same timetable as a few of your friends, hanging out tgt during the entire time you were in school.

Summer (I) was the bomb. PSC 104's undoubtedly the best module i've taken in my 4 semesters at UB, it really opened my eyes to the realities of the world. and of course, not to mention the awesome classmates! 12 of us in the class, it was a really cosy session :'))
Summer (II)... wasn't fantastic but i wouldn't say it was bad. separated from my clique totally, but lessons with the new clique were enjoyable, no doubt. presentation preparations were tiring, but we really enjoyed ourselves.

finally joined Fall'12 FOC, 'twas the best thing that happened since i entered UB. made more friends, had a lot of fun, grew closer to 2 OG mates. dropped all the pre-assigned modules and came up with a totally different timetable from my friends, saw them a lot less ):
but thanks to FOC, i had company in all my classes, even those without my close friends. took 5 modules, almost died but i enjoyed 3 of the modules thoroughly. on a whole, the semester was potentially the worst ever, but i'd say that every cloud has a silver lining and when i actually focused on the good aspects of the semester, i came to a realization that i'm truly blessed with awesome friends. it's only during down moments in your life that you realize which friends are worth keeping. don't know how I'd have survived without y'all :)

of course, i've also witnessed how some people walked out of my life. there comes a point in time where i don't really bother anymore 'cause i don't want to have ten thousand and one friends but none to really count on. really thankful for the people in my life right now, and i know that those who've stayed on are really the ones worth keeping.

no idea what Spring'13 and the rest of the year is going to be like, but I'll just embrace it with open arms. i know that with God's guidance, nothing can go wrong :))

don't like typing out a long email to ask people for information and disseminate information. it feels.. weird. like i'm bombarding the person with a lot of questions and information. saying this because i just sent out an email to one of my freshies to inform her about camp and to settle some administrative details.

i think i'm looking forward to FOC. at least my freshies seem enthusiastic! and I still think Adder is a weird name. we didn't take any photo of the completed flag so we decided to use a photo of the snake as the Whatsapp group chat icon. most of the photos look damn menacing. actually this one too. but i chose it in the end cause the flowers and all made it look friendlier haha.

won't deny that it did cross my mind, and maybe i was disappointed when i was told. open to the possibility nonetheless.

i guess only time will tell. surprise me, will you?

never thought someone could make me feel this much anger, never thought that forgiving someone would be so hard. most of the time, i get angry only for a while. this time it looks like it'll take quite some time for the anger to dissipate. after all, i was angry to the extent that i started swearing. for most of you who knew me before UB, yes i don't swear. urgh, hate it so much.

i hate looking at you and rolling my eyes, i hate being uncomfortable whenever you're around. that's not me, and that's not who i want to be. can we go back to when we first met? i prefer that over whatever awkwardness and hatred there is between us now. Cold War much? period of hostility and tension.

sighpie. how did we even reach this silent agreement to give one another the cold shoulder?

having a screwed up body clock ain't fun. tried desperately to fall asleep the night before FOC Dry Run 2 and Build & Bond, and the moment i finally went to dreamland, my partner called to wake me up. ): ): ):
tried to survive the day on 1 hour of sleep, but by lunch i needed sleep so badly. managed to survive till 4-ish the next morning tho! fell asleep while playing games, woke up when they wanted to shift upstairs to the room. plonked myself at the side of the bed and the next thing i knew, it was daybreak and we wanted to head home. honestly thought i laid there for only 5 minutes, until i realized how stupid it was for them to head up for 5 minutes before leaving. and i wasn't exactly in a comfortable position.

concussed for 12 hours the moment i got home, and I'm still damn tired. needless to say, my body clock just got more screwed up than it already is.

sighpie. four days to FOC!