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J.
"an attempt to make sense of and articulate the thoughts running through my head."
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TAGBOARD.
PEEKTURES.
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you can just think the way you want to, i don't care.
afterall, you always seem to think you're in the right.
everytime i say something in reply, you claim i have an answer to everything. fine.
who on earth will stand there and shut up when you throw wild allegations at him?
say anything you want. i'm immune to it.
no offense, but i kinda think i'm like that because of the environment i grew up in.
i'm merely speaking the truth, it's okay if you don't want to believe it. so long as my conscience is clear.
shout and scream all you want, i can't be bothered already.
i'm uber sick and tired of all this shit.
i'm tired of trying to please you.
i'm tired of trying to meet up to your expectations. everytime i reach them, you'll somehow find some fault. i know that. even my brother knows, when he's hardly ever home.
sometimes, i ask myself. why do i try so hard?
one thing's for sure, i'm never gonna let what you say put me down.
i'll go all out to prove you wrong.
that happened during the o levels, just watch.
i don't know why, i just can't seem to forget the way you told my dad about my individual subject grades and how you guys laughed when it came to science.
yes, you guys didn't believe there was hope. and i proved you guys wrong, it was one of my 2 distinctions.
but you guys laughed at it. freak.
that incident will always remain ingrained in me.
just like how you couldn't believe your ears when i had to sit for the re-exams last year and you asked what were the chances of me not making it.
you wanted to hear me say it was quite likely.
too bad, i told you the chances were slim. and i made it, didn't i?
i'll go all out to achieve what i want for myself, i won't allow your criticism to put me down.
i'm glad that of late, i'm not longer that affected by what you say.
just that i want the day to come whereby i no longer cry afterwards because i'm so pissed..Labels: freak; but thats life
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This week has been ultra hectic, and this is the first time I'm thankful for the weekend. Even though I need to catch up on my work and study for the Common Tests, I'm just glad I can get more sleep.
ODAC training at Bukit Timah Hill tmr, rawr. Just when my ankle's kinda hurting again. Oh wells.
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DEAR REDBULL,
THANKS FOR SUSTAINING ME THROUGH THE LONG AND ARDUOUS DAY AT SCHOOL.
XOXO, JESSICA
Labels: school (:
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Literature Night 2010 was simply awesome.
Sitting in the audience and watching the performance made me regretful of my decision to pull out from the cast and later, crew. Opportunity cost between my studies and Literature Night and although at times I was thankful that I pulled out, tonight I really regretted pulling out. My one and only chance to perform for Literature Night, and I missed it.
Most of the performers were from 1A02'09, and as I watched the performance with Regina and the other Council people, I really missed 1A02'09. All the fun, laughter and nonsense. And yeah, who can ever forget all the CT periods fooling around in the RR. Honestly, we all enjoyed ourselves to the max and now that they will never ever happen again, I wish I could turn back the clock.
As the days go by, I miss this class more and more. Especially when I'm reminded of the fact that no matter what, those days are but mere memories, we'll never get the chance to be in the same class ever again. Not to mention the fact that 2A02'10 is totally different from 1A02'09. The people are no longer the same, and somehow I just can't feel the sense of belonging. Plus, all my good friends are in 2A01. Yeah, most of the 2A02 people are nice people, I don't deny that, but I guess nothing can ever replace 1A02'09..
And yes, I miss having my best friends in the same class as me!Labels: school (:
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Today, Jessica is a happy girl (:
- Lunch-ed with Regina! :D
- Got home from school kinda early, so I cleared my table and now I have more space to do my work.
- Tomorrow's Literature Night! I kinda don't know why I'm so excited, but yeah.
- I found the perfect substitute for my History file! Everything's the same except the price, quality and brand. Cause Popular ran out of stock for the file I originally wanted.
- Oh and I saw Shawn today! As expected, a whole lot of crap from him HAHA.
hmm today seems to be a 'meet the best friends' dayLabels: its a good day., school (:
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My Child,
You may not know me,
but I know everything about you.
Psalm 139:1
I know when you sit down and when you rise up.
Psalm 139:2
I am familiar with all your ways.
Psalm 139:3
Even the very hairs on your head are numbered.
Matthew 10:29-31
For you were made in my image.
Genesis 1:27
In me you live and move and have your being.
Acts 17:28
For you are my offspring.
Acts 17:28
I knew you even before you were conceived.
Jeremiah 1:4-5
I chose you when I planned creation.
Ephesians 1:11-12
You were not a mistake,
for all your days are written in my book.
Psalm 139:15-16
I determined the exact time of your birth
and where you would live.
Acts 17:26
You are fearfully and wonderfully made.
Psalm 139:14
I knit you together in your mother's womb.
Psalm 139:13
And brought you forth on the day you were born.
Psalm 71:6
I have been misrepresented
by those who don't know me.
John 8:41-44
I am not distant and angry,
but am the complete expression of love.
1 John 4:16
And it is my desire to lavish my love on you.
1 John 3:1
Simply because you are my child
and I am your Father.
1 John 3:1
I offer you more than your earthly father ever could.
Matthew 7:11
For I am the perfect father.
Matthew 5:48
Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand.
James 1:17
For I am your provider and I meet all your needs.
Matthew 6:31-33
My plan for your future has always been filled with hope.
Jeremiah 29:11
Because I love you with an everlasting love.
Jeremiah 31:3
My thoughts toward you are countless
as the sand on the seashore.
Psalms 139:17-18
And I rejoice over you with singing.
Zephaniah 3:17
I will never stop doing good to you.
Jeremiah 32:40
For you are my treasured possession.
Exodus 19:5
I desire to establish you
with all my heart and all my soul.
Jeremiah 32:41
And I want to show you great and marvelous things.
Jeremiah 33:3
If you seek me with all your heart,
you will find me.
Deuteronomy 4:29
Delight in me and I will give you
the desires of your heart.
Psalm 37:4
For it is I who gave you those desires.
Philippians 2:13
I am able to do more for you
than you could possibly imagine.
Ephesians 3:20
For I am your greatest encourager.
2 Thessalonians 2:16-17
I am also the Father who comforts you
in all your troubles.
2 Corinthians 1:3-4
When you are brokenhearted,
I am close to you.
Psalm 34:18
As a shepherd carries a lamb,
I have carried you close to my heart.
Isaiah 40:11
One day I will wipe away
every tear from your eyes.
Revelation 21:3-4
And I'll take away all the pain
you have suffered on this earth.
Revelation 21:3-4
I am your Father, and I love you
even as I love my son, Jesus.
John 17:23
For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed.
John 17:26
He is the exact representation of my being.
Hebrews 1:3
He came to demonstrate that I am for you,
not against you.
Romans 8:31
And to tell you that I am not counting your sins.
2 Corinthians 5:18-19
Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled.
2 Corinthians 5:18-19
His death was the ultimate expression
of my love for you.
1 John 4:10
I gave up everything I loved
that I might gain your love.
Romans 8:31-32
If you receive the gift of my son Jesus,
you receive me.
1 John 2:23
And nothing will ever separate you
from my love again.
Romans 8:38-39
Come home and I'll throw the biggest party
heaven has ever seen.
Luke 15:7
I have always been Father,
and will always be Father.
Ephesians 3:14-15
My question is…
Will you be my child?
John 1:12-13
I am waiting for you.
Luke 15:11-32
Love, Your Dad
Almighty GodLabels: thank you Lord (:
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Attending my maternal family gathering yesterday after so many years was.. weird? I was alone, my aunt called in the morning and asked if I would like to go to her place to help her with the food preparations and attend the gathering.
Its been ages since my family attended the gathering. 5 years minimum I think. The effect of a simple squabble. Essentially, I felt pretty out of place. My mum's the second youngest, so most of my cousins are super grown up. There're 3 cousins younger than me, but they're in Primary school while the rest are in their 30s? So I was in the middle of no where. Most of the cousins I used to hang out with are married/engaged. There’re 4 that I can think of, 3 are already married, 1’s going to get married this Saturday. Out of the 3 married ones, 2 have children. Time really flies, huh. Without my brother to talk to me, it was really weird, although I did talk to some of my aunts/uncles and the 4 cousins, and I played with my nephew. He’s super duper ultra mega active, but awesomely adorable ((: Anyway, after so many years of absence, it was pretty amazing that most of them could recognise me, although I couldn’t recognise 2 of my cousins. They’re the oldest if I’m not wrong. As if to make things even, their dad asked one of my aunts who I was haha. Through the absence of time, I seem to have loss touch with 2 of my younger cousins, especially the older one in P5. In the past we used to play together but now we hardly talk. My family attended my grandma’s baptism last May and we took a family photo. After looking at the photo, she asked her mum what was an outsider doing in their family photo o.o Essentially, I really miss the old times. My grandma had 13 children, so you can imagine how fun the annual Chinese New Year gatherings were, with all the cousins. Now that we’re all grown up, things have really changed. Most of the cousins are progressing on to becoming adults and the young ones are really very young. Sometimes, I wonder if things would have turned out different if my mum and my aunt didn’t have that quarrel years back.. Oh wells. But actually, apart from all the weird-ness yesterday, I kinda enjoyed myself, meeting up with the other members of the family. (:
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Today, Jessica is a happy girl!
Bought 1 dress and 1 high waisted skirt from Bugis Street, uber niceee! :D
Labels: its a good day.
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How many schools will hold an Emergency Evacuation Exercise and play the music for the College Dance and kinda expect you to dance along at the assembly area?
SRJC does!
Well.. It was supposed to be for the JC1s. After the session ended, the Principal addressed the whole school and after a while he asked the J1s to stand, and we officially welcomed them to the SR family.
Mr Tan - Mr Armin has a song for you guys.
And they played the song for the College Dance. Amazingly, the J1s just stood there. Even when some of us J2s stood up and started dancing -.-"
It was a mini OSL gathering at the back of the field haha.
Stupid Kam Him, spun me around damn hard during the couple part. Somehow I always end up doing the dance with him haha.
The dance perked me up, but somehow it lasted only for a short time. Super duper ultra mega tired afterwards, especially after lunch :(
Here's something that just perked me up..
Haha totally random, generated after a retarded MSN conversation with Linus -.-"
"Sugar. Spice. And everything Nice.These were the ingredients chosen to create the perfect little girls. But Professor Utonium accidentally added an extra ingredient to the concoction... Chemical X. Thus the Powerpuff Girls were born! Using their ultra-superpowers, Blossom, Bubbles, and Buttercup have dedicated their lives to fighting crime and the forces of evil."
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Dear God,
Please grant me the strength to finish all my homework tomorrow. Labels: school (:
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Gift for returning to class after Orientation 2010
1. 2 Literature Write-ups due on Monday
2. 2 History SBQs
3. 1 History essay (I think)
4. 1 General Paper essay outline
5. 1 General Paper Newspaper Article handout
6. Economics Tutorial ( But I totally don't know where my class stopped at )
7. 1 Math Tutorial
8. Triple test day on 9th Feb 2010: Math Lecture Test, followed STRAIGHTAWAY by Economics Lecture Test, General Paper Comprehension Test after school.
Not to mention the fact that I need the weekend to catch up on sleep. I'm seriously exhausted to the max after Orientation. I literally stoned through the entire day, not really absorbing much.
And oh my gosh, PHUA TAI HONG SUCKS TO THE ULTIMATE MAX.
I was damn embarrassed this afternoon in front of the Soccer guys! All thanks to him! And later I met Wen Bin on the track and he shouted across the track to the D area about it -.-"
I was seriously freaking embarrassed.Labels: school (:
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JESSICA ♥ SR ODAC; DARE TO BE DIFFERENT! ((: says:
my scalp burnt AGAIN i think
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LOL
epic
rmb to put sunblock next time
:D
JESSICA ♥ SR ODAC; DARE TO BE DIFFERENT! ((: says:
scalp how to!
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ahha
liquid what
just rub on lor!
Oh my gosh, Grace Sung, you are retarded to the max!
But I still love you! <3
11 years of friendship and still counting :DLabels: msn conversations.
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I totally love this photo, apart from Jeremy's blur look -.-"
Anyways, ORIENTATION 2010 WAS AWESOME! OSLs FTW! ♥
AQUILA + CETUS + DRACO + ORION + PEGASUS = 1 UNITED SRJC FAMILY! ((:
It was uber heartwarming to see all the OSLs coming together to cheer and all. Yeah, there were inter-house conflicts throughout OSL camp and even during the Orientation itself, up till the start of the SR Picnic. But I'm glad we settled everything during the Finale.
It was a total shocker that Pegasus was champion, Orion's expression was epic. Cetus was 3rd, Aquila 2nd. You should have seen the way Orion danced around when they heard that, they expected to be crowned champions. Cetus OSLs were cheering for Pegasus to be champions, but when it was really Pegasus we were all stunned. At the same time, we were overjoyed because we won Orion! (:
Orion, what goes around comes around.
Who asked you guys to change the lyrics of Cetus' War Front cheer from Number 1 to Number 5? HAHAHA
But anyway, TRUCE yeah? :D
OSLs were cheering like crazy during debrief, came up with many 'Give me one (insert name) clap(s)'. From Mrs Tay, Mrs Tan, house captains, councillors, and some other OSLs.
Jeremy's one was retarded.
Give me one Jeremy clap; Zao xia!
Bought gifts for Nelson, and he was touched till he cried. Haha but Nelson, we all love you!
Cam-whored, tau-poked people like crazy, Cetus dinner afterwards. Pictures up, when I get them from Facebook.
Anyway, back to reality tomorrow, lessons all over again. OSLs, lets work hard together! We had our fun during Orientation, but the partnership goes on!
"We came into SRJC as JC1s '09, we will graduate TOGETHER and get into a local University in 2011"
- Nelson
I guess it was just the way he said it, with loads of conviction. We OSLs were all up on our feet cheering, as if he was a motivational speaker.
As I watched, I wished it was me instead. But like what Jermaine said, perhaps its just not meant to be..
I LOVE MY SHORT FRIEND! :D
Labels: its a good day., school (:
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dear teddy bear, i love you.
1. I'm tired.
2. I want to sleep!
3. My arm muscles are aching.
4.I think I pulled my thigh muscle.
**I DON'T REALLY WANT TO SING THE DUET WITH DANIEL TMR.
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My mind's not functioning properly. I'm sleep deprived! Fell asleep while writing my Literature essay last night. Woke up only at 6.20am this morning, when Cetus was supposed to report at 6.30am. SMS-ed Yong Xiang to let him know I'd be late and somehow I fell asleep again. Until 6.30am. Powerpacked much (:
Wanted to cab down, and I was hoping to beat the 7am morning surcharge thingy. But by the time I got ready and left my house, it was already 6.55am. Contemplated cabbing or taking the MRT down, ended up walking to the main road. I don't know why, there were no cabs today! After a while, I saw one man further down trying to flag a cab too -.-" Annoying.
Later on this cab saw me from the other direction so he made a U-turn for me. And ignored the other man. :D
It was a good thing I cabbed, cause the stupid MRT broke down again, so I heard.
Annoying much, Miss Chew didn't want to collect the essays today. What the shit. I stayed up to do it, overslept as a result, cabbed down to school cause I was late for OSL stuff and now she says its due tomorrow. RAWR. And I wanted to save money to buy my ear-piece and wallet before Chinese New Year.
On a brighter note, Jermaine saw the flat wallets at Bugis Street over the weekend. 2 for $10! Going down with Grace tomorrow to take a look. ((:
Napped after reaching home, and I woke up soley for the purpose of sending the SMS out to the J1s. Otherwise I doubt I'd even wake up. But just as well, I'm starving. Haha which other weirdo eats dinner at 11.48pm? Tee hee :DLabels: school (:
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