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J.
"an attempt to make sense of and articulate the thoughts running through my head."
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take me somewhere.
I feel as though I'm on an emotional rollercoaster.
I guess its just the emo time of the year.
I realised that this time last year, I was in an emo mood too. No prizes for guessing the reason.
Half of the class skipped school yesterday. Apparently it was 'damn bloody obvious'.
The A's are coming; I'm panicking.
And today was just an unproductive day, which explains why I'm back early. Plus I left my GE stuff at home, and I've 2 essay outlines due for tmr's tutorial.
Oh wells.
Y'know, things have changed.
But I somehow don't care anymore, unlike in the past where this kind of things bothered me.
Times have changed I guess.
I have more important priorities. Its during times like this that I feel as though I no longer know myself. Gah, why's it a yearly kinda thing? -.-"Labels: school (:, that's life.
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liberalization.
It sucks that I can't really say it out, cause different ears might interpret it differently.
Its a form of suppression, rawr.
Okay this is starting to sound like Lit. Hahaha.
Expectations and expected behaviour.
Societal stereotypes, much?
Seriously, I hate stereotypes. Leaves no room for who you really want to be.
Stereotypes suppress individualism, and people still rant about society being too herd mentality-ish.
They were the ones who constructed society in that manner in the first place right? Through how they viewed people.
So by tearing down their constructed image, they are liberalizing society, we can then be who we truly want to be.
And that sounded like History. Economic Challenges.
If only this came THIS easily during the exams.
Life would have been awesome, seriously.
Y'know what?
I think I'm not making sense.
Time for bed I guess.
Tmr's gonna be funnnnnn! :D
If I can endure the initial 3 hours.
Goodnight, world.
Today has been a nice dayyyyyy.
Labels: that's life.
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i feel piggish. i took a nap at 5pm yst but i was too lazy to wake up. until past 7am this morning haha.
i guess i was really tired from sat's trekking and party, idk why i was still high after the party so i ended up staying till 3am to do my corrections. i reached home around 12mn btw. i really amaze myself sometimes. i guess the sleep i received yst was to make up for the lack of sleep on saturday?
today was dumb, lessons at 8am and 1pm -.-" did history corrections with vanessa and joanna at the cafe, gossiped with tai hong and desmond in between. des is dumb, seriously. the 2 girls went to buy food, so i was alone. he came, we talked. after a while,
desmond - eh the girl sitting here is indian right.
jessica - uh-huh, why leh?
desmond - then how come her name's joanna?
jessica - o.o why cannot?
seriously, wth haha.
and now i know that tai hong cannot be trusted, he gave himself away and now i know that some of the soccer guys know about J. before that,
vanessa - eh somehow i think i cant trust you, tai hong
tai hong - its okay, sometimes i cant trust myself too.
watched the soccer match with alton after SR GCE rehearsals, and omg, AJ soccer seriously sucks. goal keeper was late, replaced by someone without gloves/boots. some of the players were in PE, one was in singlet, another in home clothes -.-
3-0, we won. epic, during one of the free kicks this guy kicked the ball and it hit one of the netballers head on. wth. amazingly, that girl could carry on playing afterwards o.o
on another note, there's a visit to the Singapore Arts Museum tmr for 7 representatives for clubs and societies, and after the visit, we're supposed to bring our CCA members there and give them the tour. seriously, what's with the school and all the emphasis on the arts?
found these on facebook and yeah, i think they're pretty true. 
i don't know why i found myself rolling my eyes everytime you said smth.
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... and i thought things were getting better.
oh wells. seriously, i agree with vanessa. instead of looking at the faults of others and focusing on them, why not look at your own faults and improve on them instead?
this sucks. we've got a few more months to go, so just settle things once and for all please?
i'm sure we all have our reasons for doing things, but like it or not, we are a team, and we've got to work together. try to understand why the other person does what he does, put yourself in his shoes and i guess things will be better for all of us. Labels: its a good day., its a new beginning, that's life.
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you know what, i'm glad we 'trashed things out' the other day. i think we're all happier now (:
things are better, at least we all know where we're coming from. except someone, that one.. lol i pointed it out to ming xuan just now and he was, 'if we talked about it 2 months ago then she like that nvm. but the thing is that we just said it two days ago.'
nonetheless, 22nd SR ODAC EXCO, i love you guys.
and i think it kinda sucks that you realize once you behave in that manner for a while, it somehow becomes part of you? i just made that realization today. that's one of the reasons why i'm no longer as happy and cheerful as i was in secondary school. everytime something happens, i become sad, blah blah. after a while, i 'recover'. but somehow i still remain like that. weird uh.
i was reading through my older posts and realised that to me, i've cheered up significantly after my emo period. but, i'm still the same. its like a roller-coaster ride. you can't really backtrack. it takes enormous amounts of effort to.
bleah.
i dont know, it seems as though the people around me, myself included, are having problems, in some way or another. and its kinda sad to realize that as much as you want to help, you can't do anything much. yea, you can try intervening, etc. but whether or not the situation changes.. that's not what you can decide.
vanessa tried to help me, but to no avail.
vanessa and me tried to help waii hoong today, unsuccessful.
talking things out does make you feel better to some extent.
but for me, everytime i tell someone, i tend to end up thinking/reflecting about the entire event, from the beginning to present. at least now, its not that bad. i guess thats a good thing?
oh wells, vanessa, don't think so much. although i know its hard, if i were in your shoes.
we all change, like it or not. i guess we just have to get used to the new 'you' , unless you can revert back to the past.
its hard to give up everything. but like what ming xuan said, its only on black and white. unofficially, you'll always be part of the EXCO. (: (:
Labels: ODAC is love (:, that's life.
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