i dont know, sometimes i feel that there's only so much we can do? like they say, you can bring a horse to the water, but if he doesnt want to drink it, its his choice.
i often wonder why things are like such. yeah, when presented to you, its a full package, wonderful, nice, complete. as time goes by, bits and pieces fall apart. you start to realise the flaws of it. the problem is, these items are nonexchangeable, nonrefundable. and these things are essential to you. we're forced to make do with them, and accept their flaws. yeah, i admit, its tough. but no one ever said life was gonna be a bed of roses.
i guess the only thing we can do now is just to take things into our stride?
easier said than done, sometimes i really feel like giving it all up. studies, cca, pw, the list goes on. its consoling to know that if God put you through something, He will surely see you through it. (:
to me, yeah, i believe in second chances. we are all human, we make mistakes. but, dont you think that there should be a line drawn? price elastic demand/supply curve. exceptions can be made, i agree. but only to a limited extent. freak this sounds like all my different subjects merged together. haha okay anw, yeah. you can't expect to make the same mistakes over and over again and expect things to go on as per normal?
that aside, i gave it a second chance. initially i was cold, i admit it. but vanessa/regina/grace/yunjia somehow convinced me to give it a second chance, so i tried to forget everything that happened. but, things kinda screwed it up? i'm not sure if i can carry on giving it another chance. there's no element of seriousness there. i think i've reached my limit. i don't think i can carry on pretending that nothing ever happened. cause yeah, there is. and it is of significant importance. it is a turning point in the entire situation. historian benda was right. there indeed was a transformation that took place. things are no longer the same. just like pre-world war 2 nationalism and the japanese occupation. things changed. the japanese occupation was a turning point to nationalism in southeast asia.
now, the question is, can i close one eye to it? can i see all the good and ignore the bad? i don't know, i don't know if its within my capacity to do that. because seriously, if history's gonna repeat itself, then what's the point? i need to increase
oh wells. anyway, everything that happens has a purpose, so we just have to take the backseat and let the story unfold before our eyes. all we can do, is to make use of the learning points encountered in every situation.
our God is an awesome God
He reigns from heaven above
with wisdom, power and love
our God is an awesome God.
- our God is an awesome God
somehow, i'm feeling disturbed by everything thats happening. often times i try to remember that there IS a purpose for everything and that everything that happens to us is a part of God's plan for us, but somehow i cant help but question why.
oh wells.
"I can do everything through Him who gives me strength."
-Philippians 4:13Labels: :)
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