supposedly supposed to be studying for Thursday's UGC 111 paper, but i got highly distracted.

Fall'13 has been a superbly busy (yet fulfilling semester). 4 insanely heavy modules, Council commitments, work commitments for USS's Halloween Horror Nights, gym cum circle-of-trust sessions, meetups... even though I've been complaining about how tired i am, i cannot help but smile cause most of the time, i'm having fun. my modules are annoying, no doubt but i'm thankful for awesome module mates to tide me through. Council has been enjoyable even tho P & i are always bitching; work leaves me super drained, but i'm really enjoying myself even tho the performers enjoy annoying the living daylight out of me every single day. exercise sessions have been scarce since i'm usually too tired to wake up early on Sundays, but every time we do meet, i'm thankful for the chance we get to exercise, bond, bitch, gossip and what not.

anyway, special shout-out to my dearest Sampan Buddy! no idea how we randomly got close, but thanks for everything :))

jumbled up emotions.

why do we crave the things we cannot have? i really don't get why we torment ourselves in that manner, but time and time again i find myself falling into that same hole. plain stupidity y'know. i'm only putting myself up for disappointment.

i wish life was as simple as a traffic light. okay maybe it is, just that amber's a lot more complicated than it looks. sometimes, you really cannot tell what's going on. maybe it's just a transition between red and green; sometimes its a stage all by itself. to be very honest, i have no idea what is going on right now. to proceed or to stop or to make a u-turn.. these decisions baffle me.

i guess... i'll let nature take its course. maybe it's just nothing.

come to think of it, it no longer seems to be that big of a deal anymore. or maybe its just time working its magic. that, coupled with the fact that we've hardly seen one another around recently.

i don't know if i regret it.