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went to bukit timah hill for odac training today.
the rangers didnt allow groups of more than 15 to climb the hill at one time, we have to get a permit or smth at least one month in advance. miss lam's idea? all wear our own shirt. so, we were still climbing the hill together but technically speaking, we didnt know one another. -.-"
dinner-ed at bukit timah plaza with some people afterwards, and. the most tiring part of the day wasnt the climb. it was the walking along bukit timah road, to reach the 156 bus stop. i think we walked for more than 40 mins? -.-" haha hillarious, yong siong could take 157 from the first bus stop. his next bus was coming in 7 mins, so he decided to walk with us to our bus stop, cause it was "NEAR BY". walk walk walk, our bus stop seemed so far away. shangyang kept saying we were reaching Sixth Avenue soon. but the soon was super long away.we were reaching one stop, then yong siong saw 157. he ran towards the bus stop, but the stop happened to be empty at that point and the driver bypassed the station. haha poor yong siong.
lol at one point,
yong siong - okay i cannot tahan alr. i'm taking 157 from the next stop.
so we left him there, and continued in search of our bus stop. when we were approaching one stop, suddenly shangyang went, "eh isnt that guy at the bus stop yong siong?"
and it was. omg. lame. haha cause he decided to take a bus down to a 156 bus stop and wait with us. since he alr missed 157. plus he bought the bus concession thing. nothing better to do. later one group of buses pulled in at the stop.
yao yang/tai hong/shangyang/yong siong - wah sian. so many buses, none of them ours.
shangyang - eh that last bus, looks like 156 eh!
and it was. so we started laughing at yong siong.
BUT. the bus in front of 156 turned out to be 157 -.-" haha and the bus driver slightly overshot the bus stop. as though he didnt wanna allow yong siong to board. hahahahaha.
anw, GP test tmr. i'm not prepared. i dont know how to apply AQ skills.
i'm tired. suddenly, as i was on the bus, all the fatigue started kicking in. rawr.
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JESSICA HATES ECONS. seriously. i'm still amazed at my score for the econs essay test. gosh.
the exco was supposed to meet miss lam at 7am this morning. but i awoke only at 6.40am. haha, reached at 7.15am
me - sorry miss lam!
miss lam - jessica! a bit too early ah.
heh. and yao yang appeared abt 5 mins after i did.
and idk why she's persistant about wanting the exco to lead the expedition, by forming the edges. cause at least 3 of us cant kayak properly. rawr rawr.
and jessica's harcore mugging season has officially begun. i seriously want to get promoted. its been nice studying at the cafe until the school closes. recently, at least. cause its relatively quiet. esp today.
OH i forgot. HENG JUN ZHE sucks ttm. lol he likes to eat in front of me esp when i'm hungry. that day it was fried rice, today was mcdonalds. -.-"
all of a sudden, i like math. idk why, but it seems possible to get more than just an E grade. lets hope it is the case. (:
mrt has become my preferred mode of transportation home these few days. cause 136 takes an uber long time. haha. at least i had company on the ride home. oh and i think SMRT and SBS TRANSIT should just collaborate and arrange the mrt timings in a way that will allow consumers to board the train after transferring.
me - want to chiong for the 1 min train?
wenbin - no. wont make it luh. haha
so we sat on the benches and stoned again. and i made an interesting observation. the word SERANGOON is part of the design on the benches. oh and i saw one guy with uber long hair. when tied, the ponytail was beneath his butt. and he's kinda tall too. gosh. wonder how long he took to grow his hair till that length. i'm just amazed.
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i knocked out in front of the computer last night. my 'rest' became 40mins of snooze. woke up, tried to make the laptop go to standby mode. pressed the power button, there was a popup asking if i wanted to save changes. before i could click anything, the computer shut down -.-
so i had to re-edit my PW in school today, only to reach home and realise that the file was recovered. piang. and i realised alot of people knocked out in front of the computer last night too. i know of another 2 people. lol.
and i just have this fear that i'll get retained at the end of the year. not that i want to, but i barely know my stuff. i just pray and hope that i can get promoted. seriously. rawr.
anw the school was relatively quiet tonight. i think cause the prelims have alr ended for some j2s. there were only 3 of us at the cafe. and lol, we occupied 5 tables. initially, shawn and yunjia occupied one bench. i took another. we went out to buy dinner. figured their table was too messy, came over to my table. some of yunjia's classmates went to the other table and after a while, yunjia joined me at my table, cause it was too crowded. did and discussed GP consultation hmk with shawn, went to another table. after that he remained at that table while i moved to another seperate bench. yunjia felt cold, cause she was directly beneath the fan. hence moved to another table. in total, we occupied 5 benches. lol
mrt-ed home with ona and wenbin afterwards. haha, the both of them were so tired that they looked like they just returned from camp, plus all the shoe bags and jackets... and we kept looking for seats to sit down while waiting. esp at serangoon, while wenbin and me were waiting for the train. stupid, we waited for the train for 5 mins. so we just sat down and STONED. know what i concluded? jc life sucks out the fun factor in your life.Labels: extreme fatigue.
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PW-ing.
and i was collating the survey results for the survey conducted.
and i found this :
sounds cool too but i think it would be more appealing if these excursions were subsidized or funded.HELLO JESSICA!!!guess who- yi.
LOL. who's it? care to enlighten me? (:
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you know what? i totally agree. its another 32 days to the promos. gah.Labels: faith
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3 things in my locker
1. soft toys for SR GCE Li Jiang
2. remaining prizes for ODAC's arcade
3. my books
result? it's filled to the max. i told miss liu that we had already finished distributing the prizes and asked what to do with the remaining prizes.
miss liu - keep luh, can use next time.
jessica- okay! then i pass to you later?
miss liu - no no keep with you first.
jessica - huh can put in your office not. its taking up alot of space in my locker haha.
miss liu - there's no space in my office too! :D
so.. the prizes are stuck in my locker -.-" and they occupy half of my locker space, mind you.
PRIZES + SOFT TOYS + BOOKS = A VERY FULL LOCKER.
good thing i decided not to leave my shoes in the locker nowadays. otherwise..
i wanted to pass miss lam the soft toys this morning, but i left my phone at home -.-" so i had to content with a super duper ultra mega full locker.
it sucked when i wanted to take smth from the 'storage box' in my locker. i practically had to empty my locker then put everything back in. lets just hope i manage to stuff my bag into my locker during the exam period, otherwise, "GG liao..."Labels: locker crisis
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its raining heavily outside. its 2.04am in the morning, i cant sleep. and the rain reminds me of the days when it rains in the morning and i wondered if grace and me would be able to get to Zhonghua in time. cause we walked to school.
sigh. why does everything around me remind me of Zhonghua? all the 4 happy years, all the friendships forged.. somehow, i find that i left part of me back in Zhonghua. in SR, yes, i'm happy, cheerful, etc, but sometimes, i cant help but feel that i'm no longer the same person i was in 2008.
no longer as happy,
no longer as cheerful,
no longer as crappy,
no longer as lame,
no longer as retarded,
no longer as carefree,
no longer as open,
no longer as chatty,
no longer as enthusiastic.
and i miss the old me.
i dont deny that i'm happy in SR. but i WAS way happier in Zhonghua.
4E3'08, nothing can replace the space you guys occupy.
ZHGG, i think i can say the same thing? although 22nd SR ODAC's occupying a significantly large space.
cheryl, yunjia and serene, dont worry, the space will always be yours.
same goes for grace, charmaine and jasmine. and regina.
rawr. i conclude that i'm officially suffering from the 'missing-zhonghua' syndrome. which reminds me, i haven't seen the link shawn sent me earlier.
and you know what? i'm glad everything's settled. on one hand, i wanted to see how long this could go on. but on another, the feeling that i ain't talking to my very good friend sucked. and i'm kinda glad you ignored my msges about PW. cause if i were to sit down with you face to face, i'm not sure if i could keep a straight face and not break down. as it is, when we were 'talking' on MSN last night, i could feel the urge to break down in tears. idk, it was something minor, but the fact that it happened during this period when you aren't emotionally stable made me feel uber bad. i know i'm already forgiven, but i still want to apologize. i thought about it today, and yeah. i kept re reading the conversation in which this all started. and i still feel bad.
i got pissed during the day only because i tried to be nice to you, but you gave me the cold shoulder. and all the things you directed at me when we met at the bookshop.
MSN last night, i'm sorry for giving you the cold shoulder. i couldnt resist the urge to.
seriously, i hope this never happens again.
so shawn,if you happen to read this within the next few days, you're forgiven. in case you think that i'm still angry or smth. so you dont have to bang your head into all the 1000 plus lockers in school. :)i'm serious. even if you think i sound weird on MSN, i'm not angry with you.
thanks for being there for me all these while.
XOXO! :)
and i mean it.Labels: memories. and forgiveness.
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somehow, Fireside today was different. maybe cause i wasnt there for the past 5 saturdays? idk. i felt that worship today was different. i prefer the worship during Fireside, as compared to the main service. more youth-ness i guess? and class today was, just different. it so happened that we all had smth to share for the personal reflections part. and that's rare. haha the last time i was there we were complaining about how boring daniel's stories are, cause its always the same. all about caprina. lol so today he was, "you guys complain that i tell boring stories right, so its your turn to share today." no one really said anything, until we went to the next part. and he decided to go one round. and everyone was, "actually i have a story." lol.
and i was reminded of how good God is. we were talking about Peter. and yeah, in spite of all our shortcomings, all our failures, God still forgive you. wonderful, ain't it. oh hahaha i think today our class laughed ALOT. during worship lydia, leah, eunice and me were sitting in one row, dylan was in front of me. we were lazy to move, so we had our class there. and the pre-YAs decided to have theirs next to ours. and when we started, we were laughing non-stop. and i think they threw smth at us. lol. so we moved to another place. and the last question, daniel asked us to share, go one round. beginning with caprina, since she was next to him.
daniel - so, do you truly love me? its God asking you, not me.
rest - er.....
LOL hillarious. dinner-ed with dylan at LJS afterwards, and we were talking about what we shared during class. and we started laughing. seriously, dylan and priscilla are the most dysfunctional best friends i ever knew. haha.
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initially, i felt bad. i wanted to talk to you, to apologize. my conscience was bugging me, esp during chinese. but as the day progressed, i suddenly realised smth.
what exactly did i do wrong? nothing.
why am i feeling so bad? no reason.
and i started trying to avoid you. it was too awkward, to see you and yet ignore you.
cause you started all of it in the first place. at first, we talked only about PW, etc etc. when necessary, to put it nicely. later, you decided to ignore my messages about PW. fine. do what you want? i can't be bothered, seriously.
go on, tell people that you aren't in a good mood.
why? ask jessica. fine.
i shall tell them that its because i didnt take you seriously.
i apologized.
but you decided to ignore the messages. its fine, seriously.
you can continue telling people that you're ignoring jessica today.
and for your info, jessica is also ignoring you. so no worries about it :)
you hate me? alright, i'm 110% fine with it.
i didnt do anything wrong, my conscience is clear.
i was talking to yun jia about it, and yeah. we agreed that you're our friend, but. don't you think ultimately, there's still a limit? what, ignore us when we don't take you seriously? that's why we didn't bother pacifying you.
so be it. i'm fine with anything. but i dont want our friendship to end.
anyway, if you're reading this, i just wanted to let you know that i don't hate you. i'm merely pissed.
the door's always open if you're willing to continue this friendship of ours.
xoxo, jessica.
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idk what's wrong with me. crossing the road when it was red, not realising it, and even stopping and turning around in the middle of the road. i only realised what i was doing when the taxi driver horned. oh gosh. just what is happening?
i wanted to finish GE chapter 2 tonight. but i realised that i brought it to school today without bringing it back. thought i could start on math instead. brought my GC to school, didn't bring it back. last alternative, copy econs lacture notes from the ppt. econs lecture book, brought tho school, didnt bring home.
can someone just tell me what on earth is wrong with me?
32 more days to the promos.
i want to get promoted.
i must get promoted.
jiayous jessica, i know you can do it (:
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i hate today. no, make it i hate this week.
overslept on monday, tuesday and wednesday. i was late today, but i somehow didnt care anymore.
history and econs test tmr, and i'm only studying for history. not that i'm giving up on econs, but the fundamental thing is that i dont understand the chapter. so i need to read up. and the problem here is that there is a lack of time.
the fact that its THIS week doesnt help. i've been in a foul mood of late, i've sleeping before 12mn every night, i get very little done at home.
why, jessica?
anw yun jia, yup i'll keep to my word. she gave me the permission to heck econs and focus on history. meaning i must aim to pass. which means E in jessica's standards. cause i havent gotten even an S grade for the tests, only for MYE. so getting an E will be an achievement already haha. and i wont have fun or anything until after the promos. i'll try to promise you that. and yup, i'll work hard. and get PW done. teehee.
pw's screwed to the max, i'm trying to salvage things but its hard. our chapter one is barely completed. no pilot testing, no interviews done. awesome.
you know what? i hate YOU.
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JESSICA ♥ - camp aspire group A4 is seriously and deeply missed. http://pieces-of-cake.blogspot.com says:
anw shawn ask when you wanna go chomp chomp
yunjia ♥ : munching on koko crunch... says:
go with him?
JESSICA ♥ - camp aspire group A4 is seriously and deeply missed. http://pieces-of-cake.blogspot.com says:
and me
JESSICA ♥ - camp aspire group A4 is seriously and deeply missed. http://pieces-of-cake.blogspot.com says:
he keep wanting to go
JESSICA ♥ - camp aspire group A4 is seriously and deeply missed. http://pieces-of-cake.blogspot.com says:
then he heard that you also wanna go
JESSICA ♥ - camp aspire group A4 is seriously and deeply missed. http://pieces-of-cake.blogspot.com says:
so all 3 go together
JESSICA ♥ - camp aspire group A4 is seriously and deeply missed. http://pieces-of-cake.blogspot.com says:
or you wanna go alone with him also can haha
yunjia ♥ : munching on koko crunch... says:
i want to go with serene and jess
JESSICA ♥ http://pieces-of-cake.blogspot.com says:
i think you left cheryl's name out haha
yunjia ♥ : munching on koko crunch... says:
i wanted to type cheryl not urs
yunjia ♥ : munching on koko crunch... says:
u can go with him, thn i go with cheryl and serene.ha!
JESSICA ♥ http://pieces-of-cake.blogspot.com says:
eeyer
JESSICA ♥ http://pieces-of-cake.blogspot.com says:
dont want me already luh. ><
yunjia ♥ : munching on koko crunch... says:
either shawn or me!
JESSICA ♥ http://pieces-of-cake.blogspot.com says:
BOTH LA lol
JESSICA ♥ http://pieces-of-cake.blogspot.com says:
if really must
JESSICA ♥ http://pieces-of-cake.blogspot.com says:
obviously you right. lol
yunjia ♥ : munching on koko crunch... says:
muahaha!!!
yunjia ♥ : munching on koko crunch... says:
throw him oneside
JESSICA ♥ http://pieces-of-cake.blogspot.com says:
more like throw away
JESSICA ♥ http://pieces-of-cake.blogspot.com says:
haha
yunjia ♥ : munching on koko crunch... says:
later if he noe u throwing him away, he'll emo again
JESSICA ♥ http://pieces-of-cake.blogspot.com says:
let him emo luh.
yunjia ♥ : munching on koko crunch... says:
haha. okayLabels: msn conversations.
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one star kayakking course was.. tiring. i hate kayakking. seriously, i rather cycle. went to the nike factory outlet after that, cause we got a 20% voucher. but. stupid luh, there was a sale going on, then our vouchers not valid. and and and. i got the hoodie i wanted for a super long time! 40% off. :D :D :D :D :D
the sales are really cheap, but variety rather limited.. in any case, jessica is a happy girl today!
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slept at 2.20am last night. surprisingly awake today. after i woke up, i had the feeling that i had to bring smth. came to me while i was washing up : PE shirt. when i was on the MRT, i suddenly remembered about my PE shirt. and the dumb thing was, i brought all my showering stuff, considering as how PE's from 10am to 11am.
supposed to make the announcement about the collection of teddy bears for lijiang GCE. but irwin came after mr ang and miss lam decided to cancel it. cause irwin made it just in time for school. haha hillarious. yst i was the late one, today irwin.
mr ang - i have one odac vice president and one house leader. still not enough ah.
later before he went to his form class, he told alton and me,'i'm going to leave the 3 of you back in lijiang. irwin; gonna lock him in the toilet, keep the key and fly back to singapore'
and mr lim was in a good mood today, i think. i just told him i wasnt feeling well and he didnt ask further. usually he'll ask where's your attire etc but today he didnt. :D but even if i did bring my attire, i dont think i'd gone for PE anw. haha.
lunch time was simply awesome. to the left, diagonally right. hahahahaha. :D :D :D :D :D :D
and i hate PW.
and i hate PW.
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and i hate PW.
seriously. ning rong and me got super duper ultra mega pissed and adgitated at a spastic retarded child named lai yoon hin shawn. even miss yeo. LOL. but it was entertaining luh.
odac study session was.. idk. stupid tai hong and waii hoong, ended up looking at the class/cca/council photos from zhonghua i had in my file. and they spent time discussing who was the most chio and handsome, etc etc etc. and i think the teachers are uber concern. damn hilarious, cause they were having a meeting, so miss liu passed me the AVA room key and asked me to organise them etc first, the teachers will come in later. i didnt expect ALL the teachers to come in . lol it was scary. look up, and you see all your 5 cca teachers walking in to check on you. but yeah. they're very concerned about our results. why else would they sacrifice one cca day per week for us to study?
continued studying at the cafe with jun zhe afterwards. felt accomplished but by the time i reached home, all the fatigue started to kick in. and i'm gonna do something historical. i'm not touching my books tonight. seriously. too tired.
GP test tmr at 5.15pm. haha why the weird arrangement? but i aint complaining. instead, i'm rejoicing. :D
quoted from shawn, 'park yourself at the second row tmr'. LOL~
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i'm supposed to be doing lit tutorial hmk now. but i'm bored. :)
thanksgiving concert on friday was a blast! the concert was just awesome, and it kinda made up for the fact that J1 arts classes had to stand in the gallery. sang the college anthem at the end, and yeah, and that point in time, it made me feel a certain sense of pride to be an SRJC-ian. now i know what miss liu meant when she said that the thanksgiving concert will make you feel proud to be an SRJC-ian. friday was the first time i heard the college anthem being sung so loudly and proudly.
and the principal led us through some songs, and one of them was if we hold on together. brought back memories of my secondary school days, esp the motivational camp. that motivated us only for 3 days. lol.
 zhonghua's 5th student council. without the excos (:  ZHSC 5th council! :D     this guy is uber cute. cant rmb his name though.
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    our group; with full attendance for once :) i want to go for camp aspire again. with these same people. haha i think ours is the only group that meets up for outings etc etc. dinnered together last wednesday after our leadership workshop, and movie-ed after thanksgiving concert on friday. and i had a whale of a time with them ;) Labels: camp ASPIRE
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okay. i feel dumb. church family day today at hort park. my parents didnt feel like driving, so we opted for the bus transportation. supposed to meet at harbourfront mrt at 8.30am. my mum was the coordinator so they left at 7.20am. super early, thought i would go myself. i woke up at 8.35am. and somehow, i thought we were meeting at 9.30am. genius i know. but i ended up being late, caused i missed both trains. i was at farrer park, when i looked at my phone. wanted to see around what time i'd reach harbourfront. then i suddenly realised that it was supposed to be 8.30am, not 9.30am. got off to male my way home. and again, i missed both trains. total waiting time for trains today = 6 + 5 + 8 + 7 = 26 mins. wow.
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i'm tired. in every aspect. will run today, odac had duties for will walk, and we were supposed to report to hougang cc by 6.30am. ungodly hour. but guess what. i only woke up when vanessa called me at 6.35am. cabbed down, reached my station at 7am. nina and me sat at the bus astop, took out our work to do. the first group came uber fast, waited super long for the last group. -.-" breakfast-ed with nina, tania and vanessa at the coffee shop, we were halfway through when ming xuan called. "eh go back! they're returning" what the shit. left our drinks there, and realised that the first person was jogging/running. bloody shit, stoned at the traffic junction under the hot sun. ended up taking out wuthering heights to read FOR THE FIRST TIME. mr tsui saw me when they were on their way back.
mr tsui - hi. you're still alive?
me - yes. :P
mr tsui - (gives me a quizzical look) are you reading wuthering heights?
me - haha yeah.
i wanted to add a FOR THE FIRST TIME, but haha i didnt want him to die of shock. we've been doing wuthering heights since march? and i havent read the book. absolute pro-ness eh? ;)
the walk ended earlier, met up with all the other odac road marshalls and we marched back to school, past the gantry, for the fun of it. haha uber hilarious. constance, vanessa and me sat on the track to cheer on the guys. and i realised that vanessa and me are total opposites when we cheer people on.
pair 1 : desmond and tai hong
vanessa : go desmond go taihong!
jessica : go phua go desmond!
pair 2 : fedrich and joel
vanessa : go joel go fedrich!
jessica : go fedrich go joel!
LOL. sat together as odac for the closing ceremony. supposed to go to the gallery, but it was too packed so yeah. damn funny. the sun was burning.
yong siong : eh who got umbrella?
vanessa : i got i got!
ming xuan : eh wah lau, only gu niangs use umbrellas luh.
after a while,
ming xuan : eh! got somemore umbrellas?
jessica : quote, "only gu niangs use umbrellas"
ming xuan : aiya!
lunched with constance at KFC, mrt-ed home, showered and slept. overslept, didnt feel like going for 'tution'. i skipped church as well. head was throbbing, wont get anything much if i go. went for dinner with family. and my head still hurts now. not that bad already but yeah. urgh.
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